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Somebody told me to start with a joke.

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I'm not good with jokes.

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I know it's funny that there's been some
funny things happen to me, but they're

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not like jokes.

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There was this one time, Mother's Day,
Martin took me out for dinner. We had

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probably $500 with us, more, but Martin
had to use this credit card we'd been

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using way too long already.

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I said to him, let's just pay cash, but
he hands over the card. Anyway, the guy

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stalls us, keeps us there, says the
computer's fucked up, all that.

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I said to him, they called the cops.

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Anyway, long story short, Martin had to
stab the waiter.

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We're outside running.

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I've got this dress I've got to hold up,
heels on, skipping through all these

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puddles.

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That isn't actually a joke, I guess.

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Maybe you had to be there.

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Martin and I had some laughs.

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My brother Chris is in AA.

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He stays away from me. Gets him a bad
influence on him.

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The girl fucked Chris when her boyfriend
was out of town.

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The boyfriend comes back a little while
later. They both got the clap.

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So she goes to Chris and takes him to
the clinic.

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Clinic says Chris doesn't have the clap.

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Well... This girl wouldn't believe it. I
mean, she knows her boyfriend didn't

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fuck her over when he was out of town.
She must have gotten it off of Chris.

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Except Chris doesn't have the clap.

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She's got this dirty disease and she
must have gotten it off of dirty Chris,

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right?

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See, almost the exact same thing
happened to me.

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I'm a bad influence on my brother.

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Baby thinks he caught it off me.

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Anyways, he's an AA, Chris.

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And I'm here.

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It isn't my idea.

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Somebody said that that chick that got
up the other day, she said she looked

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back on her life and it was a black
hole.

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Uh, okay.

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I look back and... I guess all I can say
about it is I miss Martin.

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That's about it. I'm Miss Martin.

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She's overdone it.

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Can't go on.

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She caused it all.

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Cry, cry, cry. I don't get it. What are
you saying?

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Well, how long has he been dead?

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Hey, fuck you. I knew him too. You're
nothing special.

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Peter, it's Noel.

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Yeah, well, they're not good.

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I've got a situation here. I need a guy
in like an hour.

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Peter, hold on, hold on.

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Hi.

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I know you're probably really mad at me.
I don't blame you.

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All right.

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Peter, hold on, hold on.

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You have money?

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Money. Do you have any?

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Uh, no, not really. I don't. Here, so
this thing...

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No, not violence. Keep guessing.

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No, my brother just got here. He's right
here.

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That's it.

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Yeah, I tried him. He's naturally the
first person I thought of, and I just

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can't get a hold of him.

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You know Ronnie's dead?

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Yeah, yeah, I talked to his wife.

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Yeah. That's a long night. How about
you?

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Five.

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I was thinking three for me because I'm
sitting up, right?

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Can we fight about this later?

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You know, this would be like a real
favor to me.

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Don't. calling me back? The guy's going
to be here in like an hour. What's the

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point in calling me back?

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I don't see a problem with this.

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Okay, what if we split it?

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$250 each.

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I said, what if we split it?

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Don't.

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Nodding up right on the phone and I
didn't even get it. Wow.

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Losing my touch, Chris.

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What do you want?

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Wow, everybody always asks me that. It's
unbelievable.

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I never know what to say.

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Denise, when it was obvious I wanted to
get out of there, move out, end it, she

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kept saying it to me. What do you want?

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Actually, what she said was, you don't
know what you want.

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You don't know what you want.

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I don't know what that means.

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I don't know what I want. I don't know
if I want a breakfast.

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I don't know if I want to take a shower,
read a book, or take a shower. I don't

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know what I want for the rest of my
life.

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Those questions are bullshit.

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What do you want, Chris?

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Uh, well... I wanted to give you this.

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Does it remind you of the one that you
had on your head?

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Golly, it's like a prize at the fair.

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Money. How much?

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Denise paid for my bus ticket. I,

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uh... Fifty bucks.

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Left, actually. Hello, where do you
think you'll stay? In a tree house?

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Call Denise right now. You need money.

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No, no, no. I can't do that. We broke
up.

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Call her. Tell her. Breaking up was a
mistake. No.

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You're thinking it over. Trying to get
your head together.

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It could happen.

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It isn't actually lying.

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You know, Noel, I realize there are
things I can take and things that I

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And one thing that I cannot take
anymore, I just can't fucking hack it,

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hypocrisy.

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Don't. Just.

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Don't. That's a cute trade, but it took
you too long to learn it.

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Five years wasn't my idea. Fuck you,
Chris. You're here?

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I need money.

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You're gonna get me some.

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You must have friends.

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Don't they have jobs?

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It isn't that much money. Call three
people. Ask them for a hundred each. A

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hundred is nothing.

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Three hundred? Five years? That's...
That's $60 a year.

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Five birthdays? Five Christmas presents?
That's...

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And that's $30 a year, Chris. $30
fucking dollars a year. It's nothing.

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it to me.

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Call your friends. Get me three.

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Get me $100. What about that?

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$20 ,000 for every year I didn't hear
from you. You were out here twice.

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Everyone saw you but me. You know what a
fucking asshole I look like?

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Can you call some people?

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Can we just have a cup of coffee and sit
down and talk and stuff?

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No. There's a guy gonna be here in an
hour. Not even that. I owe him money and

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I've gotta have it.

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Five hundred.

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Three, really.

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Can't you just go out?

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Yeah, but I can't stay out. Grow up.

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Okay, Noel. I don't have it. Sorry, but
I don't.

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Put your hands up. If I find more than
50 bucks on you, I keep it. Deal?

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Come on.

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No. No, come on. You're not going to
freak me. What do you care if you're

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telling the truth? Hey, stop it. That's
not nice to call your brother, are you?

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Oh, my God.

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Well, that's just fucking mean, Noel.

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Noel, Terry's calling for Angelo.

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And if you get this message in the next
half hour, 20 minutes... Fuck it, man.

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There's no time. Never mind. Never mind.

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And what the fuck is this guy going to
do? I mean, is he going to kill you?

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Can't he wait?

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Okay, that'd be nice.

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So I left the need.

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I'm not moving to England.

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I'm here.

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How long have you been here?

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Since I thought out.

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Of course.

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Don't be stupid.

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You gonna hug me or something?

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You've been lifting weights? You feel
like you just got out of the joint.

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Shut up.

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You know what? I actually do have
weights at home now. Well, today's will

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probably solve them.

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You didn't...

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Join the Y? Start playing handball?
Maybe a little yoga?

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Why, because I'm sober? Is that what you
think we do?

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Yep.

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You did actually join the Y.

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You're right. I couldn't cut it.

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I just wondered if you were still my
brother.

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So I'm feeling... I'm just assuming you
don't want to talk about the bit you

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did.

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Would have been nice getting a letter
then.

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You've never done any time, right?

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What have you done? You've done a
weekend?

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My life's pretty much fucked.

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Everything they say about everything is
wrong. It's unbelievable.

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I think it started for me with
snowflakes.

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You know?

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We're all supposed to be different and
unique, right? Like snowflakes.

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I heard that one too many times. So I
started thinking, okay,

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Let's say it's snowing in Toronto,
Baffin Island, and Mongolia, and none

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of those snowflakes match.

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That's bullshit. I think most snowflakes
are alike, not none of them.

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Do you ever think about killing
yourself?

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I thought, look, it takes more guts to
stay alive than it does, you know, to

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kill yourself, right? But then I was
like, why?

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You know, do I even believe that? It's
like the snowflake.

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That thought was already living in my
fucking head. I didn't even have to

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it. You have these thoughts. I don't
know. I do.

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They're like... They're like bad
neighbors. They make too much fucking

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you put up with them anyway.

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That's what... That's what lives in my
head, bad neighbors.

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You know who I ran into? Dean.

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He asked about you.

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Yeah? Plugging this gym bag big enough
to steal watermelons.

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Regular little athlete.

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It's Dean.

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You look great.

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Told him you were married.

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Someone I've never met, never seen a
picture of.

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You tell her any of that? What's her
face? Denise?

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You and Dean?

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She doesn't care. You met in the A. She
doesn't care you were with him.

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Well, I haven't done anything like that
since I've been sober.

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You weren't drunk when you met Dean.

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Okay, well, drug, same thing. I mean, I
know I wasn't stoned the day I met Dean,

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but it was that time in my life.

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I can't believe you haven't been with
another guy since Dean.

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Not even a little bit.

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You were really into that, him, the
whole thing.

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Well, I'm not... I mean, okay, I'm a
flirt, or I can be a... What are we

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about?

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True love, you and Dean living together.

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I was hiding out then.

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Never bothered me, you and Dean. It
seemed right.

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My life just changed.

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I mean, I couldn't bring you into it.

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Now it's changed again.

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I really want to make it up to you.

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Well, that's good to hear.

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Yes, I happen to need you to help me.

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Anything. Name it.

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I want you to fuck this guy with me.

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Fuck who up?

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No, just fuck him. He's going to be here
in like 45 minutes.

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Listen to me. I need money. I called
this guy. I haven't seen him for a

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of years. He wants two of us, me and a
guy. He'll pay 500.

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I've done this before with him. Usually
he just likes to watch, but in anything

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goes situation.

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I'm sure he'll settle for the two of us
on him. I know. Wait, I don't get it.

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You need this money to pay the other guy
back?

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They're both coming here?

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No, there is no other guy. That was a
lie. I made that up. This guy will pay

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500. I can't find anyone who will do it
with me.

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Fucking Ronnie's dead. So I figured if
you could give me the five, I'd cancel

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the date. If you gave me three, I'd
cancel.

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I'd have to give two to whoever I did it
with anyway.

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So if you won't give me the money, I've
got to do this guy.

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I need a partner.

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Holy shit, no. I'll give you $200. You
need the money.

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What do you need the $500 or the $300 or
whatever for? Why do you need it?

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I don't need $300. I could use $100, but
this guy is offering me $500. If that's

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what I'm turning down, gotta get that
back from somewhere, right? I can't turn

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down $500 and take $100. I'm losing
money.

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Okay, you need $100, right?

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This guy calls you up and he offers you
$500 for sex with you and another guy.

241
00:15:38,839 --> 00:15:42,700
And now you think that's what you are
supposed to have just because that's

242
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he's offering?

243
00:15:43,600 --> 00:15:44,960
That doesn't even make sense, Noel.

244
00:15:45,520 --> 00:15:46,740
No, no, no. Okay, wait, wait.

245
00:15:46,940 --> 00:15:50,520
Imagine this. You walk into a bank with
a check for 20 bucks. And the cashier

246
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cashes it, opens up the drawer, and
there's like two grand in there. You

247
00:15:53,540 --> 00:15:55,660
what? You're supposed to get the two
grand instead of the 20?

248
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Because that's what happens to be there?

249
00:15:58,780 --> 00:15:59,780
Yeah, that's right.

250
00:16:00,000 --> 00:16:01,000
That's correct.

251
00:16:01,240 --> 00:16:03,640
That's what I'm told by the noisy little
neighbors in my head.

252
00:16:05,260 --> 00:16:06,260
You fuck.

253
00:16:07,329 --> 00:16:09,390
You fucker. You fucking asshole.

254
00:16:09,970 --> 00:16:11,910
No, don't talk to me like that again,
Chris.

255
00:16:13,730 --> 00:16:15,730
Do you remember the last time I moved
and I lived out here?

256
00:16:15,970 --> 00:16:18,070
Do you remember that? You brought that
guy over to my place that you ripped

257
00:16:18,250 --> 00:16:19,910
Do you remember this? I shook his hand.

258
00:16:20,110 --> 00:16:23,290
I stood there talking to him for like 10
minutes about moving like a fucking

259
00:16:23,290 --> 00:16:27,110
asshole. And then you tell me he's there
to get money. And if I don't have it,

260
00:16:27,130 --> 00:16:31,150
we're going to have to beat him up, kick
him out, whatever. He knows where I

261
00:16:31,150 --> 00:16:34,670
live. Day fucking one, I'm already
living in Civil War. I don't want to be.

262
00:16:35,290 --> 00:16:36,740
So... This is nothing new.

263
00:16:39,500 --> 00:16:41,540
Get the fuck out of here. My pleasure.

264
00:16:50,520 --> 00:16:53,060
I don't want to do this anymore.

265
00:16:53,480 --> 00:16:55,640
Let's not do this. Fuck you. You think
I'm kidding?

266
00:16:56,300 --> 00:16:57,520
No, no, hey, no.

267
00:16:58,220 --> 00:16:59,560
Hey, let me just jump in.

268
00:17:00,020 --> 00:17:01,020
Hey.

269
00:17:06,510 --> 00:17:09,450
Hey, calm down. Don't fucking tell me to
calm down!

270
00:17:10,349 --> 00:17:11,349
No!

271
00:17:15,730 --> 00:17:16,730
Stop it!

272
00:17:19,869 --> 00:17:21,910
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. You
okay?

273
00:17:22,490 --> 00:17:24,710
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm
sorry.

274
00:17:26,510 --> 00:17:27,510
I'm really sorry.

275
00:17:27,690 --> 00:17:28,730
I'm really, really sorry.

276
00:17:38,060 --> 00:17:40,480
He'll probably pay $500 to watch us
fight.

277
00:17:41,640 --> 00:17:43,400
If you tore the rest of my clothes off.

278
00:17:47,480 --> 00:17:48,680
I don't like fighting.

279
00:17:50,700 --> 00:17:52,700
I'm glad you're here, Chris.

280
00:17:58,660 --> 00:17:59,660
Okay.

281
00:17:59,860 --> 00:18:00,860
What are we going to do?

282
00:18:02,420 --> 00:18:03,420
What do you want to do?

283
00:18:04,760 --> 00:18:06,820
I'm going to let the guy, the money
guy...

284
00:18:07,380 --> 00:18:09,180
What can we do? You know the situation.

285
00:18:12,640 --> 00:18:19,000
I mean, I... I don't know. I'd like...
Would you like a cup of coffee?

286
00:18:19,820 --> 00:18:20,820
Yeah.

287
00:18:21,040 --> 00:18:22,040
Yeah, I really would.

288
00:18:24,560 --> 00:18:26,040
Isn't that shirt a little airy now?

289
00:18:26,580 --> 00:18:27,580
Are you cold?

290
00:18:28,820 --> 00:18:29,820
Are you cold?

291
00:18:37,550 --> 00:18:40,510
And he always makes fun of the way I
dress. He says I'm too drab.

292
00:18:41,750 --> 00:18:45,870
He goes out and buys me all these
fucking shirts.

293
00:18:47,310 --> 00:18:49,390
I hate them. They make me feel
conspicuous.

294
00:18:49,670 --> 00:18:51,170
You're not interested in deeming.

295
00:18:52,150 --> 00:18:53,990
You're not interested in guys at all.

296
00:18:55,170 --> 00:18:57,450
You're clearly not interested in money.

297
00:18:59,650 --> 00:19:00,930
How do you feel about junk?

298
00:19:02,970 --> 00:19:04,150
That's what this is about.

299
00:19:10,800 --> 00:19:14,660
I've been clean almost three months.
Part of my parole, I have to go to the

300
00:19:14,660 --> 00:19:15,660
fucking meetings.

301
00:19:15,900 --> 00:19:16,900
Come on.

302
00:19:18,760 --> 00:19:22,320
Yeah, well, the bus. I was going,
getting my sheet signed.

303
00:19:22,640 --> 00:19:24,080
Lately, I've been signing it myself.

304
00:19:24,520 --> 00:19:26,380
Well, if you've already been going,
you've probably heard this before.

305
00:19:27,120 --> 00:19:32,260
But why not, uh... Why not try one more
day?

306
00:19:33,280 --> 00:19:35,320
Because this is the day I want it.

307
00:19:35,880 --> 00:19:36,880
Today.

308
00:19:37,429 --> 00:19:39,910
The only day of the week I worry about.

309
00:19:42,210 --> 00:19:46,030
Well, if you've already made up your
mind, you wouldn't be telling me any of

310
00:19:46,030 --> 00:19:49,070
this. I'm telling you I tried the
fucking meetings so you don't have to

311
00:19:49,070 --> 00:19:50,070
save me.

312
00:19:51,050 --> 00:19:52,050
Those people.

313
00:19:52,570 --> 00:19:57,450
I don't know how you do it. They're
scared, like scared little kids.

314
00:19:57,910 --> 00:20:00,030
They want bad things not to happen.

315
00:20:00,590 --> 00:20:02,890
You don't follow the program, you get
cancer.

316
00:20:03,630 --> 00:20:04,950
They think they...

317
00:20:05,400 --> 00:20:08,500
See, their prayers and their good little
boys and girls, nothing bad will happen

318
00:20:08,500 --> 00:20:10,280
to them. Anything bad does happen.

319
00:20:10,500 --> 00:20:12,360
Like, to somebody else especially.

320
00:20:12,900 --> 00:20:16,540
They figure out where he went wrong, how
it can't happen to them, and think

321
00:20:16,540 --> 00:20:17,540
they'll live forever.

322
00:20:19,840 --> 00:20:22,320
Do you believe that shit? Are you still
my brother?

323
00:20:25,460 --> 00:20:26,840
I don't know. It beats heroin.

324
00:20:29,600 --> 00:20:30,600
What does?

325
00:20:33,780 --> 00:20:34,780
Look, I...

326
00:20:34,800 --> 00:20:37,420
I mean, I know. I can see where you have
your problems with it. We all do.

327
00:20:38,560 --> 00:20:41,420
First time you walk in, you see the
signs in the front of the room there,

328
00:20:41,420 --> 00:20:42,420
slogans.

329
00:20:43,600 --> 00:20:44,740
Keep it simple.

330
00:20:45,140 --> 00:20:46,140
Easy does it.

331
00:20:46,500 --> 00:20:49,700
I know. It's bad news. I know. What the
fuck am I doing here?

332
00:20:50,140 --> 00:20:52,640
You know, it's easy to think that you're
too smart for it. That's easy.

333
00:20:53,500 --> 00:20:57,640
You know, they think they're cliches.
And they're, you know, I'll tell you,

334
00:20:57,640 --> 00:21:01,880
are. Well, I mean, look, they are. They
are cliches. They are.

335
00:21:03,100 --> 00:21:04,100
But I had this guy.

336
00:21:04,700 --> 00:21:09,860
The sponsor, I got rid of my M andM for
years, but he used to tell me, there's a

337
00:21:09,860 --> 00:21:13,420
reason that cliches have become cliches,
right? That they've been around a long

338
00:21:13,420 --> 00:21:17,800
time, that they've lasted, and that's,
he's saying they're true, you know?

339
00:21:18,440 --> 00:21:19,440
And I felt better.

340
00:21:20,880 --> 00:21:22,260
Then I stopped feeling better, of
course.

341
00:21:22,780 --> 00:21:25,680
Been around a long time, I mean, fuck
off. Santa Claus has been around a long

342
00:21:25,680 --> 00:21:27,980
time. Neckties have been around a long
time.

343
00:21:28,280 --> 00:21:30,140
There's nothing more useless than a
fucking necktie.

344
00:21:31,820 --> 00:21:33,980
Cliches are, I don't know, you believe
them, you become one.

345
00:21:34,300 --> 00:21:35,300
Clichés are neckties.

346
00:21:35,400 --> 00:21:37,960
They're the neckties you hang yourself
with in your cell.

347
00:21:40,720 --> 00:21:42,060
That's good. I'm going to write that
down.

348
00:21:43,340 --> 00:21:45,300
I never remember these things in time.

349
00:21:54,760 --> 00:21:56,120
New York? I don't know.

350
00:21:56,940 --> 00:21:57,940
What's that?

351
00:21:59,760 --> 00:22:01,740
You think it's not going to work. It
shouldn't work.

352
00:22:02,780 --> 00:22:05,570
But... You can get clean. You can still
grow.

353
00:22:06,150 --> 00:22:07,150
Because of God.

354
00:22:08,990 --> 00:22:12,730
Did you know I was supposed to move to
England? That I got accepted to

355
00:22:12,730 --> 00:22:16,410
theological school in Nottingham? Did
Dad tell you any of that?

356
00:22:17,770 --> 00:22:21,810
Yeah, I figured it was bullshit. No. You
were just trying to beat him for the

357
00:22:21,810 --> 00:22:22,809
tuition money.

358
00:22:22,810 --> 00:22:23,810
No, no, no, no, no.

359
00:22:25,210 --> 00:22:28,250
I don't know what to say about it, but
it sounds like a long story.

360
00:22:29,530 --> 00:22:31,810
He's not interested because it's just
me!

361
00:22:33,520 --> 00:22:35,980
She set up a partner first. I was
fucking greedy.

362
00:22:37,980 --> 00:22:39,160
Fucking rotty!

363
00:22:40,420 --> 00:22:44,160
It takes more guts to go on living than
it does to kill yourself. It's

364
00:22:44,160 --> 00:22:46,540
unbelievable. It's what I was thinking
without even fucking thinking.

365
00:22:47,580 --> 00:22:48,580
I mean, obviously.

366
00:22:49,340 --> 00:22:50,480
Just look at it.

367
00:22:51,340 --> 00:22:54,200
It's always harder to do something new
than it is to just keep going. It's a

368
00:22:54,200 --> 00:22:55,199
basic law of physics.

369
00:22:55,200 --> 00:22:58,560
The only people you hear who say that it
takes more guts to go on living are the

370
00:22:58,560 --> 00:22:59,800
ones that don't have the guts to kill
themselves.

371
00:23:00,699 --> 00:23:03,560
Those people are supposed to have guts.
That's kind of self -serving. I don't

372
00:23:03,560 --> 00:23:05,980
buy that. What are you talking about?

373
00:23:08,120 --> 00:23:12,360
I don't know. I'm supposed to know what
to say to you, Noel, and I don't.

374
00:23:14,300 --> 00:23:15,300
I'm not going to kill myself.

375
00:23:15,520 --> 00:23:16,520
That's not what I mean.

376
00:23:18,080 --> 00:23:23,600
But this fucking guy, I don't know that
I can do that. Take it out of your

377
00:23:23,600 --> 00:23:26,880
pants. Close your eyes. You 50 each.

378
00:23:29,320 --> 00:23:34,860
It's been a long time. I haven't... What
does he look like? How old is he?

379
00:23:35,560 --> 00:23:36,560
Don't I look skinny?

380
00:23:37,340 --> 00:23:38,400
You want to just watch?

381
00:23:38,620 --> 00:23:40,160
You might go for it. How old is he?

382
00:23:40,860 --> 00:23:41,860
He's older.

383
00:23:41,880 --> 00:23:43,380
You'll look great to him.

384
00:23:44,900 --> 00:23:48,140
No. This is the thing, man. You fucking
scare me.

385
00:23:48,580 --> 00:23:50,000
I was supposed to be a priest.

386
00:23:50,780 --> 00:23:52,200
Anglican. You can still have sex.

387
00:23:56,060 --> 00:23:59,590
I don't know. I don't... I'd have to
think about it. Why does it have to be

388
00:23:59,590 --> 00:24:01,230
right now? Why does it have to be
tonight?

389
00:24:01,530 --> 00:24:03,870
Look, it's like this. We fuck the guy.

390
00:24:04,090 --> 00:24:09,050
Make him kneel down, close your eyes,
don't say anything, or else just sit

391
00:24:09,150 --> 00:24:11,490
just watch, don't smile.

392
00:24:12,590 --> 00:24:17,050
I'll tell me you're a cop, a vice cop,
that you're forcing me to do this.

393
00:24:18,510 --> 00:24:21,930
Okay, all that's left, you could do
something to me or I do something to

394
00:24:21,950 --> 00:24:22,950
and that's out, right?

395
00:24:24,460 --> 00:24:28,500
We're not going to do this tomorrow or
next week or at midnight.

396
00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:30,240
We're going to do it now.

397
00:24:30,660 --> 00:24:31,700
So what's it going to be?

398
00:24:36,140 --> 00:24:38,200
Why don't I just call Dad and ask him
for $250?

399
00:24:38,960 --> 00:24:40,400
He won't like it, but he'll do it.

400
00:24:40,740 --> 00:24:43,460
You know what? No, that's not fair.
That's not fair to him. He doesn't have

401
00:24:43,460 --> 00:24:44,460
fucking money.

402
00:24:46,100 --> 00:24:48,220
Call him now. No, I just got off the
bus.

403
00:24:48,540 --> 00:24:51,920
Call him now. I'm not sending my guy
away and then finding out you can't get

404
00:24:51,920 --> 00:24:52,920
money. No.

405
00:24:56,760 --> 00:25:02,140
Go. Who the fuck is Noel? Nobody here by
that name. It's Noel, like doll, like

406
00:25:02,140 --> 00:25:03,140
hole, you know?

407
00:25:05,840 --> 00:25:08,280
It's just a little joke. What do you
think it is?

408
00:25:10,020 --> 00:25:13,600
The right way to say it is any way you
want to say it.

409
00:25:15,500 --> 00:25:17,860
I'm just teasing you, bad man.

410
00:25:19,920 --> 00:25:22,680
There's somebody here. We were just
talking about you.

411
00:25:24,840 --> 00:25:26,580
Well, you'll just have to see for
yourself.

412
00:25:29,120 --> 00:25:30,420
But just once that can be.

413
00:25:33,480 --> 00:25:34,480
Hold on.

414
00:25:38,180 --> 00:25:39,220
He can wait.

415
00:25:39,720 --> 00:25:40,720
But not forever.

416
00:25:44,360 --> 00:25:46,020
Don't make us start without you.

417
00:25:46,880 --> 00:25:48,160
You're gonna be late.

418
00:25:48,840 --> 00:25:50,060
Not too late.

419
00:25:50,280 --> 00:25:51,760
You're gonna fucking this thing up.

420
00:25:52,020 --> 00:25:53,240
I'm such a busy girl.

421
00:25:54,730 --> 00:25:58,270
We've got a little time to hunt around
here and find you a pair of balls.

422
00:25:59,010 --> 00:26:02,090
A good set of balls that swing the kind
men have.

423
00:26:02,630 --> 00:26:04,910
You said you'd done this with him
before, but he doesn't know how to say

424
00:26:04,910 --> 00:26:07,690
name. So you don't know him, do you?

425
00:26:07,990 --> 00:26:10,010
I don't know him that well, but I know
him.

426
00:26:10,310 --> 00:26:14,550
All right, I'm just going to say this.
I'm just going to say it.

427
00:26:16,090 --> 00:26:17,650
There's a god, Noel.

428
00:26:18,410 --> 00:26:19,670
There's a fucking god.

429
00:26:20,130 --> 00:26:22,630
You'd make the blind see, brother. You
really would.

430
00:26:23,100 --> 00:26:26,720
I'm not kidding, Noel. I would be
fucking nowhere without God.

431
00:26:27,200 --> 00:26:30,860
You're in my room. You fucked up your
marriage. You got 50 bucks?

432
00:26:31,260 --> 00:26:33,560
If I was you, I'd give the devil some
serious consideration.

433
00:26:34,140 --> 00:26:38,080
Yeah, I do this thing, Noel. I am the
devil. You can just watch, I said.

434
00:26:38,340 --> 00:26:39,920
Well, hold on your pants and don't
watch.

435
00:26:40,280 --> 00:26:43,880
Will a blowjob send you to hell? Well,
helping you get money for drugs doesn't

436
00:26:43,880 --> 00:26:44,920
really matter how I help.

437
00:26:45,260 --> 00:26:47,120
No, you're helping me get money.

438
00:26:47,760 --> 00:26:53,080
Your sister is fucking broke, and after
five years, not a word, not a dime?

439
00:26:53,660 --> 00:26:56,520
Now, you sit there. You are being a smug
little cocksucker.

440
00:26:56,740 --> 00:27:00,480
Any cocksucker performed horrors worse
than anybody.

441
00:27:01,100 --> 00:27:02,100
Now, look at you.

442
00:27:02,420 --> 00:27:06,080
I need you to help me, and you're going
to fucking help me. All you have to do

443
00:27:06,080 --> 00:27:08,840
is sit still, shut up. That isn't a
whole lot to ask.

444
00:27:09,100 --> 00:27:12,580
How I spend my money, that's my own
fucking business. You understand?

445
00:27:13,160 --> 00:27:14,980
My money, my business.

446
00:27:16,170 --> 00:27:17,170
You understand?

447
00:27:17,250 --> 00:27:18,270
Yes, I understand.

448
00:27:25,190 --> 00:27:26,470
Want some more coffee?

449
00:27:27,650 --> 00:27:30,530
I bet I'm feeling a little jumpy.

450
00:27:32,850 --> 00:27:33,850
You'll be fine.

451
00:27:36,450 --> 00:27:38,610
Have you ever thought about this before
with me?

452
00:27:39,070 --> 00:27:40,170
This situation?

453
00:27:40,470 --> 00:27:41,470
No.

454
00:27:42,010 --> 00:27:43,530
No, I mean, have you ever thought
about...

455
00:27:44,240 --> 00:27:46,220
You ever thought I would have sex with
me before?

456
00:27:46,520 --> 00:27:48,900
I'm not asking you to have sex with me,
Chris.

457
00:27:49,400 --> 00:27:52,400
Okay, but have you ever thought about it
at all, in any way?

458
00:27:52,740 --> 00:27:56,380
Well, for a couple years on and off,
it's not about tacking you down in

459
00:27:56,380 --> 00:27:58,020
and getting somebody to break your
thumb.

460
00:27:58,820 --> 00:28:00,700
Martin knows plenty of guys who can do
that.

461
00:28:00,980 --> 00:28:01,980
Cheap, too.

462
00:28:02,880 --> 00:28:05,600
And then I started getting quite angry
at you.

463
00:28:06,480 --> 00:28:09,940
Thought about putting you in a
wheelchair for life, maybe having you

464
00:28:10,580 --> 00:28:12,940
It's a lot more expensive, but you get
what you pay for.

465
00:28:14,330 --> 00:28:15,970
Then I just thought about killing you.

466
00:28:16,750 --> 00:28:18,430
I haven't thought about that for a year
or two.

467
00:28:18,710 --> 00:28:20,070
Maybe once or twice.

468
00:28:20,610 --> 00:28:21,610
But really?

469
00:28:22,090 --> 00:28:23,610
In the last year or so?

470
00:28:24,270 --> 00:28:29,050
I haven't thought much about you at all.
So no, I didn't think about fucking

471
00:28:29,050 --> 00:28:30,050
you.

472
00:28:31,550 --> 00:28:35,390
You know, I don't have to be here when
this guy shows up. I mean, you didn't

473
00:28:35,390 --> 00:28:37,110
know that I would come. What the fuck
were you going to do?

474
00:28:38,450 --> 00:28:39,910
You even fucked, you happy?

475
00:28:40,450 --> 00:28:41,770
Where are you going to go with 50 bucks?

476
00:28:41,990 --> 00:28:42,990
Venues?

477
00:28:43,880 --> 00:28:44,880
Just saying.

478
00:28:45,240 --> 00:28:46,380
Okay, you said.

479
00:28:46,900 --> 00:28:50,100
You've got about, oh, no time to make up
your mind.

480
00:28:50,580 --> 00:28:52,260
You just said he was going to be late.

481
00:28:53,380 --> 00:28:56,020
We're not going to be drinking coffee
when he walks in.

482
00:28:56,240 --> 00:28:57,760
This guy's paying five bills.

483
00:29:07,440 --> 00:29:08,440
What's his name?

484
00:29:09,140 --> 00:29:10,140
Lewis.

485
00:29:12,620 --> 00:29:13,620
Lewis?

486
00:29:24,460 --> 00:29:26,500
There's a charter flight going from
Miami to Rome.

487
00:29:26,980 --> 00:29:29,080
The plane's been up in the air about
three hours. It's full.

488
00:29:29,680 --> 00:29:32,560
And the pilot comes over to the intercom
and he says, I've got good news and

489
00:29:32,560 --> 00:29:33,560
I've got bad news.

490
00:29:33,580 --> 00:29:34,580
Is this a joke?

491
00:29:34,940 --> 00:29:35,940
Yes.

492
00:29:36,720 --> 00:29:40,480
He says, I've got good news and I've got
bad news. The bad news is, I don't know

493
00:29:40,480 --> 00:29:44,080
where the hell we are. But the good news
is, we're making damn good time.

494
00:29:48,460 --> 00:29:49,620
I think that does it.

495
00:29:57,300 --> 00:29:58,700
There but for the grace of God.

496
00:29:58,940 --> 00:29:59,940
Unbelievable.

497
00:30:00,120 --> 00:30:01,380
You hear? Everybody fuck it up.

498
00:30:03,120 --> 00:30:07,380
Grace of God. I know it sounds like
bullshit to you, but it's really, it's

499
00:30:07,380 --> 00:30:08,480
whole thing, you know?

500
00:30:10,100 --> 00:30:14,220
And I don't think grace comes and comes
and comes, you know? I think you can say

501
00:30:14,220 --> 00:30:17,020
no to it, you know? Like, I believe in
the grace of God.

502
00:30:17,520 --> 00:30:21,660
I am sober and I am clean and I am alive
today by the grace of God. But what is

503
00:30:21,660 --> 00:30:25,780
it supposed to fucking mean if somebody
can't stop using, if they can't get

504
00:30:25,780 --> 00:30:29,530
sober? I've got the grace of God, but
they don't? That's bullshit. You can say

505
00:30:29,530 --> 00:30:30,530
no to it.

506
00:30:30,590 --> 00:30:32,910
You know what? This is the kind of shit
that worries Dad.

507
00:30:33,330 --> 00:30:35,970
He said to me, can you see Chris going
for this religious thing?

508
00:30:36,190 --> 00:30:40,370
I said, Dad, Chris has been a religious
maniac all his life.

509
00:30:40,610 --> 00:30:45,810
When I was in grade three or four, you
told me you wanted to die on a fucking

510
00:30:45,810 --> 00:30:51,130
rock. You told me that is how you wanted
to die. I was in the fifth grade.

511
00:30:51,290 --> 00:30:52,390
That's kid talk.

512
00:30:52,630 --> 00:30:55,990
Not as common as you think. Not like
wanting to be a fireman.

513
00:30:58,320 --> 00:31:01,620
I believe in the grace of God. I am
alive because of the grace of God.

514
00:31:02,580 --> 00:31:03,780
He's dying on a cross.

515
00:31:08,200 --> 00:31:09,940
Noel, I can't tell you what to do, okay?

516
00:31:13,600 --> 00:31:15,980
I was supposed to be a priest, and I
said no.

517
00:31:17,000 --> 00:31:20,500
Lewis isn't coming over here today
because of God, by the way. I'm not here

518
00:31:20,500 --> 00:31:21,500
because of God.

519
00:31:22,460 --> 00:31:23,760
This is about saying no.

520
00:31:25,550 --> 00:31:27,050
Joint fucks with your body.

521
00:31:27,670 --> 00:31:31,110
Makes you fat or something. Would you
pay 500 for this?

522
00:31:31,670 --> 00:31:32,690
I'm your brother.

523
00:31:33,710 --> 00:31:35,130
Okay, try to imagine you're not.

524
00:31:37,150 --> 00:31:38,230
I'm tired of imagining.

525
00:31:38,490 --> 00:31:41,010
You know who you are. It's bad enough
without fucking imagining.

526
00:31:41,450 --> 00:31:45,370
I'm trying to remember the body I had,
not imagine it.

527
00:31:47,830 --> 00:31:49,510
Oh, you think I look that bad?

528
00:31:50,570 --> 00:31:51,570
I'm your brother.

529
00:31:52,330 --> 00:31:54,950
Yeah, okay, when you get here, you're
not my brother.

530
00:31:55,190 --> 00:31:56,330
You want me to join the Y?

531
00:31:57,870 --> 00:32:02,150
Ow, hey, don't... Should I shave my
legs? They're not really smooth, but I

532
00:32:02,150 --> 00:32:03,150
think they're rough. Are they rough?

533
00:32:03,730 --> 00:32:04,730
Are they rough?

534
00:32:04,930 --> 00:32:05,930
Stop that.

535
00:32:06,150 --> 00:32:07,150
Stop it.

536
00:32:07,290 --> 00:32:09,190
Stop it. Call Lewis. Tell him to forget
it.

537
00:32:09,630 --> 00:32:10,630
You gonna give me 500?

538
00:32:10,910 --> 00:32:11,910
Yeah.

539
00:32:11,950 --> 00:32:12,950
Yes.

540
00:32:13,150 --> 00:32:14,150
Yes.

541
00:32:15,330 --> 00:32:16,330
Yes.

542
00:32:18,010 --> 00:32:19,010
I've got...

543
00:32:20,750 --> 00:32:23,210
That much. A little more. Not much more.

544
00:32:24,370 --> 00:32:25,370
But I have that.

545
00:32:26,110 --> 00:32:27,910
I don't believe you. Let me see it.

546
00:32:46,030 --> 00:32:47,030
Fifteen bucks.

547
00:32:47,330 --> 00:32:49,490
Did God teach you how to lie?

548
00:32:49,690 --> 00:32:51,120
Okay. Come on.

549
00:32:51,380 --> 00:32:52,380
Call those.

550
00:32:52,620 --> 00:32:55,880
Tell them to forget it. How many gets
here? You really don't want to do this

551
00:32:55,880 --> 00:32:56,880
thing, do you?

552
00:32:57,000 --> 00:33:00,380
Nope. His five only gets him an hour. It
won't even take that.

553
00:33:00,840 --> 00:33:04,880
Five from him, this five. Five more in
your pants? No, no, no, no. That's a

554
00:33:04,880 --> 00:33:07,860
decent amount of money, Chris. I gave
you that so that Lewis would stay out of

555
00:33:07,860 --> 00:33:10,120
it. If you don't fucking like it, you
can back me. No, you gave me this. You

556
00:33:10,120 --> 00:33:12,620
have no say in what I do with it. That
is bullshit. I didn't give you anything.

557
00:33:12,980 --> 00:33:16,160
I didn't fucking give you anything. I'm
paying you. For what?

558
00:33:16,460 --> 00:33:17,460
For sex.

559
00:33:19,820 --> 00:33:22,480
You fucking get it. Never mind. Whoa,
whoa, whoa.

560
00:33:23,260 --> 00:33:27,640
Whoa there, big guy. You already paid
the girl. You change your mind, you

561
00:33:27,640 --> 00:33:28,639
get a refund.

562
00:33:28,640 --> 00:33:31,420
If you tell Dad, I will deny it. And he
knows you're fucking crazy.

563
00:33:31,780 --> 00:33:32,780
I'm crazy?

564
00:33:32,840 --> 00:33:34,800
You've got the balls to say that?

565
00:33:37,680 --> 00:33:39,140
Okay, fine. Forget it. Fuck it.

566
00:33:39,620 --> 00:33:40,620
Forget it. Forget it.

567
00:33:41,720 --> 00:33:42,720
I don't want it.

568
00:33:43,200 --> 00:33:45,420
I am bailing you out of this situation,
though.

569
00:33:47,480 --> 00:33:48,840
I can't stop you from...

570
00:33:49,550 --> 00:33:52,150
Doing drugs, guys. At least I can stop
you from turning tricks.

571
00:33:52,390 --> 00:33:55,090
But you're going to do something for me.
Tomorrow morning, you're going to come

572
00:33:55,090 --> 00:33:56,230
to a fucking meeting with me.

573
00:33:56,450 --> 00:33:57,450
Yeah? Yes!

574
00:33:57,730 --> 00:34:00,030
This could be the grace of God entering
your life.

575
00:34:00,330 --> 00:34:01,330
Woohoo!

576
00:34:02,290 --> 00:34:05,830
There's a girl our age at my home group.
It's not that weird.

577
00:34:07,350 --> 00:34:09,610
You want to do it with me?

578
00:34:11,210 --> 00:34:12,570
We can do it. No, no.

579
00:34:14,110 --> 00:34:15,810
You must think I'm so fucked up.

580
00:34:16,830 --> 00:34:18,730
You know what you want. A lot of guys
don't.

581
00:34:19,600 --> 00:34:20,719
Why don't I want a new car?

582
00:34:23,159 --> 00:34:24,159
Do you know what you want?

583
00:34:28,460 --> 00:34:32,020
I want if we do it.

584
00:34:33,260 --> 00:34:37,520
I don't want, like, kissing and hugging
and all that stuff.

585
00:34:38,360 --> 00:34:40,520
We're going to do it once. I want to do
it to death.

586
00:34:40,880 --> 00:34:41,880
I'll do anything.

587
00:34:42,580 --> 00:34:43,780
But we're going to wait for Lewis.

588
00:34:46,120 --> 00:34:48,920
Just a second. I can't just do it. I
mean, can you...

589
00:34:49,239 --> 00:34:52,420
Right now, you could take off your
clothes and do it. Just like that. Yup!

590
00:34:53,580 --> 00:34:57,600
Okay, if he's here, it's something we
do. I can understand that. I can

591
00:34:57,600 --> 00:34:58,600
understand the shape of it.

592
00:34:58,900 --> 00:35:00,940
And there's... We can really do it.

593
00:35:01,360 --> 00:35:03,680
There's nothing we can't do with Lewis.
The badder, the better.

594
00:35:04,240 --> 00:35:06,560
I can do it with Lewis, but I'm not
doing it with Adam. You're unbelievable.

595
00:35:07,100 --> 00:35:09,720
You have to have that other 500, because
it's there.

596
00:35:21,130 --> 00:35:22,550
Too bad you don't like kissing, eh?

597
00:35:22,890 --> 00:35:24,090
Because you're good at it.

598
00:35:27,250 --> 00:35:30,510
Oh, fuck, Noel. I've been thinking about
this for such a long fucking time.

599
00:35:33,330 --> 00:35:35,550
But with somebody out there, it doesn't
make it fucking weird.

600
00:35:36,290 --> 00:35:38,070
It makes it normal.

601
00:35:38,570 --> 00:35:40,590
No, it doesn't. He watches, he pays.

602
00:35:41,430 --> 00:35:42,510
Listen, you'll like Lewis.

603
00:35:43,270 --> 00:35:44,550
He doesn't act stupid.

604
00:35:44,790 --> 00:35:45,790
You'll like him, he just doesn't.

605
00:35:50,980 --> 00:35:51,980
You gonna help me?

606
00:35:53,680 --> 00:35:54,040
You

607
00:35:54,040 --> 00:36:03,600
ever

608
00:36:03,600 --> 00:36:08,780
thought about getting this place
painted? It would make a world of

609
00:36:08,780 --> 00:36:10,940
do that now, by the way. I'm a painter's
assistant.

610
00:36:12,820 --> 00:36:14,800
Those are the kind of jobs we get, eh,
people?

611
00:36:15,800 --> 00:36:19,100
I don't fucking like it. No, that's not
true. That's not true. I'm grateful. I'm

612
00:36:19,100 --> 00:36:20,100
grateful to be working.

613
00:36:21,770 --> 00:36:24,750
Fuck. There it is again. That fucking
thought. I hate fucking paintings.

614
00:36:24,970 --> 00:36:27,950
But I hate even more being grateful for
things that I fucking hate.

615
00:36:28,170 --> 00:36:30,990
Better than rope. Cheaper than
stockings. Come here.

616
00:36:31,290 --> 00:36:33,770
Now. Silly. Okay, don't make this
impossible.

617
00:36:35,510 --> 00:36:36,510
Okay,

618
00:36:37,030 --> 00:36:38,510
fuck. You can handcuff me to the bed.

619
00:36:38,830 --> 00:36:40,130
Hide on my feet. No.

620
00:36:40,690 --> 00:36:42,830
Isn't this something I'd let a trick do?
But you... It's okay.

621
00:36:43,950 --> 00:36:45,030
It will be fun.

622
00:36:46,110 --> 00:36:47,390
We can do whatever.

623
00:36:48,609 --> 00:36:51,470
Blindfold me if you want. I don't want
you blindfolded, Noel. I want you in it.

624
00:36:51,490 --> 00:36:53,150
You're the whole point. What do you
want, Chris?

625
00:36:56,330 --> 00:36:57,330
I want everything.

626
00:36:58,650 --> 00:36:59,650
I paid.

627
00:37:07,150 --> 00:37:11,010
You know when I got busted for that gas
station in Sherbrooke? The cops

628
00:37:11,010 --> 00:37:13,330
handcuffed me to a chair all night.
Those handcuffs.

629
00:37:13,790 --> 00:37:14,790
I know.

630
00:37:16,520 --> 00:37:18,880
Fucking cops, man. If I don't use, I
believe in God.

631
00:37:19,860 --> 00:37:20,860
I'm a painter.

632
00:37:21,120 --> 00:37:22,520
I like the fucking cops.

633
00:37:23,300 --> 00:37:24,300
Ow. Ow.

634
00:37:25,400 --> 00:37:26,400
Tell my brother.

635
00:37:26,820 --> 00:37:28,060
I thought we were going to wait for
Lewis.

636
00:37:28,780 --> 00:37:29,780
No?

637
00:37:31,560 --> 00:37:32,560
Ah.

638
00:37:32,700 --> 00:37:34,460
I wasn't kidding about the thing with
the painting.

639
00:37:34,820 --> 00:37:37,960
You should really do it. Okay, when
Lewis gets here, I don't want you

640
00:37:37,960 --> 00:37:39,540
any of that shit. He's in that kinky.

641
00:37:47,700 --> 00:37:49,640
Wow, it's freezing in here.

642
00:37:49,840 --> 00:37:50,840
It is cold.

643
00:37:51,420 --> 00:37:55,480
Hey, why don't we wait with my pants
until he gets here, and then you can

644
00:37:55,480 --> 00:38:00,620
them off or, I don't know, pull them
down, take them off, whip it out.

645
00:38:01,680 --> 00:38:02,840
Do you use handcuffs a lot?

646
00:38:05,960 --> 00:38:06,960
Put it up in that bag.

647
00:38:11,040 --> 00:38:13,480
I didn't imagine it like this at all.

648
00:38:14,200 --> 00:38:15,800
I fucked you up imagining.

649
00:38:16,590 --> 00:38:18,110
I mean, that's why there's TV.

650
00:38:18,410 --> 00:38:20,110
You can't make it up all the time, huh?

651
00:38:25,450 --> 00:38:26,450
Go.

652
00:38:27,390 --> 00:38:29,570
Oh, hey, Ange. Too late. I got somebody.

653
00:38:30,210 --> 00:38:31,950
The freak show, you know.

654
00:38:34,910 --> 00:38:37,310
Well, Ange, the money wasn't that good
anyways, Ange.

655
00:38:39,190 --> 00:38:43,230
I got a guy. I knew him a long time ago,
and then he fucked me over, and now he

656
00:38:43,230 --> 00:38:44,230
owes me.

657
00:38:48,710 --> 00:38:50,090
I don't have money, man.

658
00:38:51,690 --> 00:38:53,490
I don't pay that good.

659
00:38:57,330 --> 00:39:01,090
You know how it is. I'm calling
everybody and then the right guy comes

660
00:39:01,350 --> 00:39:02,610
He's just there, right?

661
00:39:03,410 --> 00:39:05,170
God sent him to my door.

662
00:39:05,870 --> 00:39:08,510
I spent a fucking day. I called you.

663
00:39:08,770 --> 00:39:09,990
Did you know Ronnie's dead?

664
00:39:12,110 --> 00:39:15,670
It's in a corner. I was fucked. Anyway,
it all came together.

665
00:39:16,200 --> 00:39:17,260
Fucking miracle.

666
00:39:17,500 --> 00:39:21,260
One second and nothing, and there's the
answer to everything right in front of

667
00:39:21,260 --> 00:39:22,260
me.

668
00:39:24,000 --> 00:39:30,980
This guy, Chris, I've

669
00:39:30,980 --> 00:39:34,900
known him all my life, and he came to
visit.

670
00:39:35,600 --> 00:39:39,520
I hadn't seen him in years, and we were
going to score, but we changed our

671
00:39:39,520 --> 00:39:40,520
minds.

672
00:39:50,160 --> 00:39:52,780
There's things I've done and I just
don't feel bad about them.

673
00:39:53,160 --> 00:39:55,760
Things I've done to people, most of them
had it coming.

674
00:39:57,660 --> 00:40:02,440
Maybe I'll change my mind about that.
Maybe I won't. I am not trying to be

675
00:40:02,440 --> 00:40:03,440
normal.

676
00:40:04,900 --> 00:40:05,900
Chris is married.

677
00:40:07,760 --> 00:40:10,400
And that isn't the worst problem we've
got, believe me.

678
00:40:11,620 --> 00:40:12,720
We got involved.

679
00:40:13,980 --> 00:40:16,300
After all those years, after our whole
lives.

680
00:40:18,440 --> 00:40:19,440
Involved.

681
00:40:23,050 --> 00:40:26,750
I've been with guys, a lot of guys,
especially after I started using.

682
00:40:29,090 --> 00:40:34,070
And sometimes we'd fix, me and a guy,
and in the dark I'd be nodding in and

683
00:40:34,070 --> 00:40:36,730
and I'd get the idea that I was really
with Chris.

684
00:40:39,130 --> 00:40:40,470
I'd say his name.

685
00:40:42,030 --> 00:40:43,870
Chris told me it happened to him as
well.

686
00:40:45,310 --> 00:40:46,370
So Chris was here.

687
00:40:47,850 --> 00:40:49,450
Except we weren't stoned.

688
00:40:50,310 --> 00:40:51,890
And the whole night long it...

689
00:40:54,410 --> 00:40:55,710
I felt like I had a fever.

690
00:40:57,430 --> 00:41:00,430
I'd see his face for a second, and this
time it really was him.

691
00:41:01,330 --> 00:41:05,950
And the whole night long, I'd see the
kinds of things you see with a high

692
00:41:09,130 --> 00:41:13,390
I woke up in the morning, and I felt
like I'd crossed the ocean swimming.

693
00:41:14,770 --> 00:41:16,530
And in the morning, it was still Chris.

694
00:41:19,490 --> 00:41:20,490
We didn't score.

695
00:41:27,140 --> 00:41:31,780
Martin... I don't know where to start.

696
00:41:33,460 --> 00:41:37,360
Martin... What can I tell you about
Martin?

697
00:41:43,540 --> 00:41:44,880
Martin's a stuffed animal.

698
00:42:07,470 --> 00:42:08,710
Your biggest problem?

699
00:42:09,210 --> 00:42:10,210
You're stupid.

700
00:42:10,570 --> 00:42:14,810
You think too much and you're stupid.
It's like the worst combination there

701
00:42:14,890 --> 00:42:17,910
I am out $500 because you're stupid.

702
00:42:18,110 --> 00:42:23,290
It's a crime being stupid. You get
caught and you pay for it. You owe me

703
00:42:23,650 --> 00:42:24,649
Hey.

704
00:42:24,650 --> 00:42:28,850
Get off. Get these fucking handcuffs off
me now. Get off. You're making a big

705
00:42:28,850 --> 00:42:31,750
mistake, Chris. I will burn you down to
the ground, you cocksucker. Get these

706
00:42:31,750 --> 00:42:35,690
fucking things off me or I'll start
screaming. Go ahead, scream. Okay.

707
00:42:42,640 --> 00:42:44,680
Get them off. Don't act like you're a
real little girl, Chris.

708
00:42:44,940 --> 00:42:45,598
Oh, yeah?

709
00:42:45,600 --> 00:42:47,960
You're a fucking cunt. And you're lying.

710
00:42:48,220 --> 00:42:49,220
Little mouth.

711
00:42:49,260 --> 00:42:50,260
Give me the key.

712
00:42:51,040 --> 00:42:52,400
You fat ass.

713
00:42:52,680 --> 00:42:56,120
You have $500. You didn't do a fucking
thing to deserve it and you're still not

714
00:42:56,120 --> 00:42:57,540
happy? You don't tell a lie. Too fucking
bad.

715
00:42:57,780 --> 00:42:58,980
You shouldn't have told Lewis.

716
00:42:59,320 --> 00:43:00,380
You're my brother.

717
00:43:00,780 --> 00:43:04,420
It's too weird. I gotta fuck his sister.
Maybe I'll kill you later, you know? P

718
00:43:04,420 --> 00:43:06,320
.S. It's really strange to fuck your...

719
00:43:06,920 --> 00:43:11,180
How the fuck can you call anything
strange, Noel? That guy, that was

720
00:43:11,380 --> 00:43:13,340
Your idea is not my fault. Fuck you!

721
00:43:13,580 --> 00:43:16,180
My ass is as good as anybody's.

722
00:43:16,580 --> 00:43:19,240
Badass. You don't even think that. I'm
keeping money.

723
00:43:19,660 --> 00:43:23,720
Fine. I told you how we had to do it. We
had to do it with him. You fucked it

724
00:43:23,720 --> 00:43:28,220
up. Fine, fuck. This isn't happening,
right? You don't think I'm worth 500?

725
00:43:28,860 --> 00:43:32,160
No, I don't. All on your own? No.

726
00:43:33,420 --> 00:43:34,460
Neither does Lewis.

727
00:43:35,740 --> 00:43:38,740
Nobody would pay you a dime to fuck
that. I know that, Noel.

728
00:43:40,700 --> 00:43:43,540
Nobody would pay anyone 500. Who's worth
500?

729
00:43:44,060 --> 00:43:45,800
Madonna. Yeah, besides Madonna.

730
00:43:46,140 --> 00:43:48,300
I don't know, but you're not. That's the
point, right?

731
00:43:49,860 --> 00:43:53,360
I'm gonna fucking show my shrink a
picture. Picture of Denise, picture of

732
00:43:53,980 --> 00:43:55,480
Junkie. Just got out.

733
00:43:55,880 --> 00:43:57,740
Tell him I'm gonna pay you five bills.

734
00:43:57,980 --> 00:43:59,860
And I'll be fucking committed, sister or
not.

735
00:44:05,440 --> 00:44:06,440
Fucking money.

736
00:44:06,700 --> 00:44:07,700
Get out.

737
00:44:38,480 --> 00:44:39,920
Can I introduce you to some heroin?

738
00:44:42,140 --> 00:44:43,440
Now you want to score.

739
00:44:44,580 --> 00:44:49,660
Five years you act like a good boy, now
you're acting like a guy going bad.

740
00:44:51,400 --> 00:44:56,400
Get out of my fucking room. All I said
was not 500, okay? No, it wasn't fucking

741
00:44:56,400 --> 00:45:01,700
personal. You and your shrink laughing
at my picture? Sounds personal. Sorry, I

742
00:45:01,700 --> 00:45:02,700
was pissed off.

743
00:45:04,279 --> 00:45:06,460
You know, I stopped fucking drinking
because I couldn't do what I want to do.

744
00:45:06,540 --> 00:45:09,140
Now I'm sober and I can't do what I want
to do. And I don't really know what I'm

745
00:45:09,140 --> 00:45:10,240
supposed to fucking want.

746
00:45:11,160 --> 00:45:12,220
I want to shoot Martin.

747
00:45:14,980 --> 00:45:17,860
I want to shoot Martin in the fucking
knees and slit his throat. And I want to

748
00:45:17,860 --> 00:45:20,980
live with a girl that doesn't speak
English in another country. And I want

749
00:45:20,980 --> 00:45:25,140
fucking junk. I want to shoot. I want to
score some fucking dope.

750
00:45:28,460 --> 00:45:30,160
You think junk's worth 500?

751
00:45:31,180 --> 00:45:32,600
I think it's all down to junk.

752
00:45:35,480 --> 00:45:36,480
Chunkin' Madonna.

753
00:45:48,340 --> 00:45:49,640
Alexi, no, Terry, happen what?

754
00:45:53,620 --> 00:45:56,240
Were you still here when Martin shot
that guy up by Burger King?

755
00:45:56,940 --> 00:45:57,940
No.

756
00:45:59,040 --> 00:46:00,460
Jenny, me, call me back.

757
00:46:02,100 --> 00:46:06,750
No. The guy is chasing him for a block,
and you know, you know, how far is

758
00:46:06,750 --> 00:46:10,230
Martin gonna run? Just walking. The
guy's still running after him, so Martin

759
00:46:10,230 --> 00:46:11,490
shot him. Didn't kill him.

760
00:46:11,710 --> 00:46:13,190
You know who this is? Call me back.

761
00:46:15,490 --> 00:46:20,450
Shit. So he gets into some guy's car,
makes him drive through a red light,

762
00:46:20,610 --> 00:46:25,670
a pickup hits him, knocks the car right
through the front window of, not the

763
00:46:25,670 --> 00:46:29,550
Couch Tide, the other deck. Yeah, yeah.
Drivers all smashed up. Martin gets out

764
00:46:29,550 --> 00:46:31,150
and robs the till.

765
00:46:31,870 --> 00:46:35,790
Goes out, flies down a cab, and comes
home. Actually, no. No, he doesn't come

766
00:46:35,790 --> 00:46:39,450
home. He gets out a block away. He's
being cautious.

767
00:46:39,850 --> 00:46:45,230
Won't pay the fucking cab. Shows the guy
the gun. Robs him, too. Then he comes

768
00:46:45,230 --> 00:46:46,490
home and falls asleep.

769
00:46:47,130 --> 00:46:49,550
With around 200 cops outside for him.

770
00:46:51,770 --> 00:46:52,770
Anyways.

771
00:46:53,710 --> 00:46:54,710
Martin.

772
00:46:56,210 --> 00:46:57,790
Keep hearing he wants to kill me.

773
00:46:59,710 --> 00:47:01,030
I know Martin's got dope.

774
00:47:02,859 --> 00:47:04,680
Well, what are we waiting for? Run,
don't walk.

775
00:47:05,100 --> 00:47:06,098
You mean funny?

776
00:47:06,100 --> 00:47:07,340
Are you, Martin?

777
00:47:08,180 --> 00:47:11,260
Why don't we just stab ourselves and set
fire to the money? It saves the trouble

778
00:47:11,260 --> 00:47:13,260
of going out. He doesn't just want to
kill me.

779
00:47:13,600 --> 00:47:15,500
I've heard that. He's never said it to
me.

780
00:47:16,260 --> 00:47:19,320
He gave me a necklace when we were
together. He said it was his mother's.

781
00:47:21,200 --> 00:47:22,200
Okay, I doubt it.

782
00:47:22,860 --> 00:47:23,860
Whatever, it was nice.

783
00:47:24,180 --> 00:47:25,420
He gave it to me Mother's Day.

784
00:47:26,860 --> 00:47:31,040
Sometimes he calls me and he tells me,
as long as I still have the necklace, I

785
00:47:31,040 --> 00:47:32,040
belong to him.

786
00:47:34,200 --> 00:47:35,500
Wait. Give it back to him.

787
00:47:36,080 --> 00:47:37,760
I sold it. He is dope.

788
00:47:39,220 --> 00:47:40,220
Go.

789
00:47:41,740 --> 00:47:43,060
Oh, hi.

790
00:47:45,480 --> 00:47:47,800
You don't know the way I answer the
phone.

791
00:47:50,120 --> 00:47:52,400
Oh, you know me. I'm not through my bad
habits.

792
00:47:54,640 --> 00:47:55,640
When?

793
00:47:56,240 --> 00:47:57,300
Oh, I must have been out.

794
00:48:00,600 --> 00:48:02,640
Actually, I haven't been going lately.

795
00:48:03,360 --> 00:48:08,580
Um, can I call you back? This isn't...
Can I call you back? This isn't really a

796
00:48:08,580 --> 00:48:09,580
good time to talk.

797
00:48:10,920 --> 00:48:12,200
Yeah, my brother, he's visiting.

798
00:48:14,400 --> 00:48:17,020
Oh, he's suspicious. It's my brother,
really.

799
00:48:19,540 --> 00:48:20,540
Christopher.

800
00:48:20,680 --> 00:48:21,680
Hello.

801
00:48:25,740 --> 00:48:26,740
Me too.

802
00:48:34,280 --> 00:48:37,060
You don't want to try Martin? We can
either wait on Alexa or hit the street.

803
00:48:41,020 --> 00:48:42,580
Who was that?

804
00:48:42,940 --> 00:48:43,940
The guy.

805
00:48:45,340 --> 00:48:47,540
I met him at a meeting. We went for
coffee.

806
00:48:49,580 --> 00:48:50,580
Coffee?

807
00:48:50,620 --> 00:48:52,380
Dark liquid, hot, comes in a cup.

808
00:48:52,620 --> 00:48:53,620
Yeah?

809
00:48:54,520 --> 00:48:56,320
We had, I guess, kind of a date.

810
00:48:56,800 --> 00:49:00,120
I don't think I've ever been on a date
in my life. The meeting's like being

811
00:49:00,120 --> 00:49:01,280
in high school, isn't it?

812
00:49:01,820 --> 00:49:02,820
A date?

813
00:49:03,460 --> 00:49:10,380
Did you get the trail calls on the phone
a date we went out I? Don't get it.

814
00:49:10,420 --> 00:49:11,420
Why would you go with this guy?

815
00:49:12,700 --> 00:49:14,380
You find me babe. What's happening?

816
00:49:15,000 --> 00:49:17,940
Well, I mean, I don't I don't I don't
understand some guy you meet a fucking

817
00:49:17,940 --> 00:49:21,620
meeting and don't even like going to
them He's taking you out. You fucked

818
00:49:21,640 --> 00:49:22,640
What birthday?

819
00:49:23,300 --> 00:49:30,220
Fuck you. No, fuck him you fuck him Not
five hundred not even five bucks. Did he

820
00:49:30,220 --> 00:49:31,780
pay for the coffee? Hey you and him?

821
00:49:32,800 --> 00:49:35,620
Entirely different situation. Why? Why?
Is he your boyfriend?

822
00:49:36,040 --> 00:49:38,480
Will you act your age? You want to know
if we're going steady?

823
00:49:40,340 --> 00:49:41,340
Are you?

824
00:49:42,500 --> 00:49:43,500
Wow.

825
00:49:45,860 --> 00:49:49,360
Okay, sorry. I didn't know that you had
a guy. A bezoi -friend.

826
00:49:49,700 --> 00:49:53,900
Hey, hey, hey. It's a bit of a surprise.
He's not my bezoi -friend, okay? He's

827
00:49:53,900 --> 00:49:56,160
just a guy. I slept with him once.

828
00:49:57,100 --> 00:49:58,100
Maybe twice.

829
00:49:59,400 --> 00:50:00,620
You slept with him?

830
00:50:00,940 --> 00:50:03,800
You have to. Stop repeating everything I
say.

831
00:50:05,760 --> 00:50:08,640
He's not going to show up here if that's
what you're worried about. Yeah, I'm

832
00:50:08,640 --> 00:50:09,640
worried about that.

833
00:50:09,700 --> 00:50:12,360
Well, I don't understand what the
problem is. There's no problem.

834
00:50:12,680 --> 00:50:15,100
There's no problem. I met Denise at a
fucking meeting.

835
00:50:17,960 --> 00:50:21,820
So what happened? You met him, took you
out, took you home. Is that it?

836
00:50:22,260 --> 00:50:23,260
More or less.

837
00:50:24,140 --> 00:50:26,040
Well, you fucked him twice. You must
have liked it.

838
00:50:26,800 --> 00:50:28,140
Gee, you got me, Reverend.

839
00:50:32,509 --> 00:50:35,410
I bet he liked it too. It must have been
a whole new experience for him.

840
00:50:35,650 --> 00:50:36,650
It was.

841
00:50:40,630 --> 00:50:41,630
It's normal.

842
00:50:42,130 --> 00:50:43,270
You know, it's normal.

843
00:50:44,110 --> 00:50:46,770
People in the program get involved all
the time.

844
00:50:47,130 --> 00:50:50,810
It's not a good idea, but it happens. I
just hope that he's not the kind of guy

845
00:50:50,810 --> 00:50:53,290
that snags newcomers, gets them when
they're really vulnerable.

846
00:50:53,510 --> 00:50:54,870
You know, there's a lot of those fucking
guys.

847
00:50:56,310 --> 00:51:00,270
I'm kind of surprised. I'm actually a
little disappointed, but whatever. He

848
00:51:00,270 --> 00:51:01,590
stopped using. He started going to
meetings.

849
00:51:02,000 --> 00:51:03,740
You're just the same as everybody else,
right?

850
00:51:04,000 --> 00:51:08,240
Beats you fucking dipstick, beats you,
uh, beats you cliches that sound like

851
00:51:08,240 --> 00:51:10,600
wisdom. I bet he used needles, too,
right?

852
00:51:11,080 --> 00:51:12,080
Oh, my God.

853
00:51:12,360 --> 00:51:15,880
Uh, you guys probably think it's meant
to be, right, that God's protecting you?

854
00:51:16,500 --> 00:51:17,500
Yeah.

855
00:51:17,800 --> 00:51:22,360
I bet that's what you think. Fuck, I
hope you die, Noel. I hope you get sick

856
00:51:22,360 --> 00:51:25,460
fucking die. See you when you're dead.
What is happening?

857
00:51:25,960 --> 00:51:28,460
What happened? Because I fucked him for
nothing?

858
00:51:28,700 --> 00:51:32,250
You offered the money. I didn't ask for
it. You think... Everything's about

859
00:51:32,250 --> 00:51:36,330
money, Noel. It's fucked up. Uh, I'm
ugly. I've got a fat ass. I don't look

860
00:51:36,330 --> 00:51:37,330
your wife.

861
00:51:38,690 --> 00:51:42,170
Okay, you cannot promise to fix me and
then don't fix me. You can't.

862
00:51:42,390 --> 00:51:44,810
You asked your fucking boyfriend to fix
you.

863
00:51:50,670 --> 00:51:51,790
Why don't you scream?

864
00:51:54,530 --> 00:51:56,830
Fuck. Hey, hey. Get the fuck away.

865
00:51:59,660 --> 00:52:01,940
You're a tough girl. Come on, chair boy.

866
00:52:03,600 --> 00:52:04,339
Fuck off.

867
00:52:04,340 --> 00:52:05,340
You fuck off.

868
00:52:08,960 --> 00:52:09,960
Call back.

869
00:52:10,540 --> 00:52:11,740
Alex, Alex, don't hang up.

870
00:52:12,780 --> 00:52:13,780
Time out.

871
00:52:13,980 --> 00:52:14,980
Okay.

872
00:52:16,160 --> 00:52:17,200
Alex, wait.

873
00:52:17,880 --> 00:52:18,880
You need to stop, Alex.

874
00:52:19,060 --> 00:52:21,460
I'll tell you what I did with him,
Charles, on our date.

875
00:52:21,860 --> 00:52:23,460
I'll do the same things with you.

876
00:52:34,350 --> 00:52:35,350
Fucking nice.

877
00:52:37,190 --> 00:52:38,190
Alex.

878
00:52:38,770 --> 00:52:40,870
Can you help me out?

879
00:52:45,370 --> 00:52:50,210
He's going

880
00:52:50,210 --> 00:52:54,370
to be late, Alex.

881
00:52:54,890 --> 00:52:56,670
He picks up in this area. He'll call.

882
00:53:00,910 --> 00:53:02,050
Do you have condoms?

883
00:53:03,370 --> 00:53:04,550
No, I don't.

884
00:53:08,690 --> 00:53:11,610
Okay, first things first. Hand over the
money. You're not going to fuck me out

885
00:53:11,610 --> 00:53:12,269
of the dope.

886
00:53:12,270 --> 00:53:13,270
I don't trust you, no.

887
00:53:13,570 --> 00:53:15,070
I don't give a flying fuck, Chris.

888
00:53:24,670 --> 00:53:25,670
It's there.

889
00:53:28,150 --> 00:53:29,150
Go wait in the bathroom.

890
00:53:29,970 --> 00:53:32,150
Oh, is that what you did with him on
your date? Did he want that?

891
00:53:32,900 --> 00:53:34,100
No, is that what you want?

892
00:53:34,560 --> 00:53:37,380
No. Go wait in the bathroom for a
minute.

893
00:53:48,260 --> 00:53:49,920
You like women beating you, Chris?

894
00:53:50,660 --> 00:53:51,660
No.

895
00:53:52,600 --> 00:53:53,740
You like beating them?

896
00:53:54,340 --> 00:53:55,340
No.

897
00:54:02,220 --> 00:54:05,580
Maybe you want a little half and half, a
little fucking, a little sucking.

898
00:54:07,260 --> 00:54:09,680
I could just give you a head or you
could go down on me.

899
00:54:10,140 --> 00:54:13,120
Whatever. You said you'd do the same
things we did on your date, okay?

900
00:54:13,520 --> 00:54:15,180
You said you'd do the same things to me.

901
00:54:15,820 --> 00:54:18,280
And don't talk to me like I'm a trick.

902
00:54:19,380 --> 00:54:21,360
That's what I did with Charles. He liked
it.

903
00:54:25,360 --> 00:54:28,400
Maybe we should wait till we fix it. I
didn't wait three months so I could blow

904
00:54:28,400 --> 00:54:29,520
my fix having sex.

905
00:54:30,020 --> 00:54:31,660
Fixing is fixing and fucking is fucking.

906
00:54:34,460 --> 00:54:35,600
Can you wait in the bathroom?

907
00:54:40,980 --> 00:54:43,140
Okay, so what? You went out? What did
you do? You came back here?

908
00:54:43,640 --> 00:54:44,880
Yes. Okay.

909
00:54:46,500 --> 00:54:47,500
Nice place.

910
00:54:47,820 --> 00:54:50,160
Oh, I'm afraid there's nothing to drink.
Would you like to fuck me?

911
00:54:50,380 --> 00:54:51,920
You didn't say that to him.

912
00:54:52,260 --> 00:54:53,300
Oh, yes, I did.

913
00:54:53,620 --> 00:54:56,780
Well, then I don't want that, okay? I
don't want... I want our date dead.

914
00:54:58,370 --> 00:55:03,750
Your than mine. Later, it's time we can
do the things you did with him.

915
00:55:04,570 --> 00:55:07,310
Okay, so it's not me and Charles. It's
you and me.

916
00:55:07,950 --> 00:55:11,410
Yeah. Well, yeah. I mean, you're you and
I'm me, but different.

917
00:55:11,830 --> 00:55:13,470
Okay, I'm not your sister? No, no, no.

918
00:55:13,730 --> 00:55:17,810
I want you to be my sister. Chris,
you're a fucking coach, mom.

919
00:55:18,370 --> 00:55:24,350
You call me up. Me, Noel Terry, and ask
me out. We go out together. You, Chris

920
00:55:24,350 --> 00:55:25,610
Terry, and me.

921
00:55:26,210 --> 00:55:27,210
We go for...

922
00:55:27,870 --> 00:55:28,870
Supper.

923
00:55:29,010 --> 00:55:30,610
Chinese. Mm -hmm.

924
00:55:31,170 --> 00:55:32,230
Then we go to a movie.

925
00:55:32,550 --> 00:55:36,150
Let's skip the movie. We had a lot to
talk about at dinner, and I don't want

926
00:55:36,150 --> 00:55:39,490
stop. Okay, so what? When you came here,
you just did it?

927
00:55:39,950 --> 00:55:40,950
Did he kiss you?

928
00:55:41,890 --> 00:55:45,270
I kissed him before we got here. He
looked sad, and I gave him a kiss.

929
00:55:46,310 --> 00:55:47,650
Aw, you looked sad?

930
00:55:49,830 --> 00:55:51,230
That's a fucking lame routine.

931
00:55:51,550 --> 00:55:54,710
He was hoping you'd mercy fuck him.
Okay, do you want to know or don't you?

932
00:55:54,710 --> 00:55:55,710
do. Go.

933
00:55:57,720 --> 00:55:58,940
Okay. We came here.

934
00:55:59,300 --> 00:56:02,960
I asked him if he wanted to fuck me. Not
really serious. Kind of the same way I

935
00:56:02,960 --> 00:56:03,678
did with you.

936
00:56:03,680 --> 00:56:04,680
He laughed.

937
00:56:05,300 --> 00:56:07,260
Not really laughed. He kind of smiled.

938
00:56:08,940 --> 00:56:10,540
And then he sat me down on his knee.

939
00:56:11,200 --> 00:56:12,200
Where was he sitting?

940
00:56:12,360 --> 00:56:13,360
Where you are.

941
00:56:13,820 --> 00:56:14,820
Huh. Huh.

942
00:56:15,380 --> 00:56:16,420
He was standing.

943
00:56:16,900 --> 00:56:19,260
He took my hand and he led me over.

944
00:56:19,800 --> 00:56:21,900
And then he sat me down on his lap.

945
00:56:22,580 --> 00:56:24,880
And he put his arms around my waist.
Like...

946
00:56:25,640 --> 00:56:26,920
Okay, do you want to do it?

947
00:56:27,960 --> 00:56:29,080
Arms around me.

948
00:56:29,540 --> 00:56:34,640
Okay. And you squeeze me tight, and then
tighter and tighter until I couldn't

949
00:56:34,640 --> 00:56:37,140
breathe. Squeeze until you can't
breathe? That's stupid.

950
00:56:37,360 --> 00:56:38,360
Try it.

951
00:56:40,900 --> 00:56:45,560
Yes. And then... And I caught my breath.

952
00:56:46,500 --> 00:56:50,580
And then I leaned my head back, and he
kissed my neck.

953
00:56:54,030 --> 00:56:56,910
And I wanted to turn around and kiss him
on the mouth, but he wouldn't let me.

954
00:56:56,950 --> 00:56:57,970
He just crushed me.

955
00:57:01,570 --> 00:57:08,330
He said, he asked me... He asked me if I
felt close to him.

956
00:57:10,410 --> 00:57:11,410
Did you?

957
00:57:13,090 --> 00:57:14,090
Yes.

958
00:57:15,230 --> 00:57:16,230
Yes.

959
00:57:20,970 --> 00:57:22,190
Let me up. No.

960
00:57:22,510 --> 00:57:23,950
No, he let me. Finally, Charles let me.

961
00:58:12,700 --> 00:58:16,520
Martin. He calls me and hangs up before
he even hears my voice.

962
00:58:17,870 --> 00:58:21,550
I think he's afraid a guy will answer
and then he'll feel more or less obliged

963
00:58:21,550 --> 00:58:23,090
to come over and kill him.

964
00:58:24,730 --> 00:58:28,170
He didn't answer the phone when he was
here. Watch this, babe.

965
00:58:29,210 --> 00:58:30,210
Charles?

966
00:58:35,190 --> 00:58:35,670
I

967
00:58:35,670 --> 00:58:46,250
got

968
00:58:46,250 --> 00:58:47,250
up in the morning.

969
00:58:47,450 --> 00:58:48,510
And wanted to die.

970
00:58:49,150 --> 00:58:51,350
The most interesting way for it to
happen.

971
00:58:51,870 --> 00:58:53,630
I get together with Martin again.

972
00:58:55,250 --> 00:59:00,130
He's the only guy who... Oh, that's it
right there.

973
00:59:01,190 --> 00:59:02,330
He's the only guy.

974
00:59:04,370 --> 00:59:06,310
Everybody else, they might as well just
shoot water.

975
00:59:18,990 --> 00:59:21,690
I don't feel so sick after Charles.

976
00:59:26,370 --> 00:59:29,470
Usually I just feel sick and I don't
know what can fix me.

977
00:59:30,270 --> 00:59:31,690
Or what I can fix.

978
00:59:33,990 --> 00:59:35,610
I hate the fucking telephone.

979
00:59:40,570 --> 00:59:41,570
Okay, no.

980
00:59:44,110 --> 00:59:45,570
No, come on, come back to me.

981
00:59:46,570 --> 00:59:47,950
Martin didn't call, okay?

982
00:59:48,600 --> 00:59:49,600
The phone didn't ring.

983
00:59:50,420 --> 00:59:53,920
You didn't wake up this morning and
decide to die in an interesting way.

984
00:59:54,300 --> 00:59:55,300
Okay?

985
01:00:04,680 --> 01:00:05,740
You'd die anyway.

986
01:00:19,080 --> 01:00:20,800
Help me with these. I want them around
the bed.

987
01:00:28,940 --> 01:00:32,060
Hey, is this the necklace he gave you?
His mother's?

988
01:00:35,260 --> 01:00:37,040
Did he give you the dress to match?

989
01:00:37,860 --> 01:00:39,280
Shut up and fuck off!

990
01:00:44,880 --> 01:00:46,200
Charles on our date, actually.

991
01:00:46,570 --> 01:00:48,970
He squeezed me. He said it was too
bright. I lit candles.

992
01:00:50,530 --> 01:00:51,530
Okay.

993
01:00:53,210 --> 01:00:55,310
When did you sleep with Martin? When was
the last time?

994
01:00:56,310 --> 01:00:57,870
You don't want to be on that date,
Chris.

995
01:00:59,330 --> 01:01:03,170
The last time I fixed, Martin came over
that night.

996
01:01:05,350 --> 01:01:06,350
Here.

997
01:01:06,910 --> 01:01:08,590
In this bed. With Martin.

998
01:01:09,850 --> 01:01:11,110
Does it make you shrivel up?

999
01:01:11,750 --> 01:01:13,230
No, maybe it makes you hard.

1000
01:01:16,170 --> 01:01:18,150
Did you light candles for Martin?

1001
01:01:19,130 --> 01:01:20,470
Martin does it in the dark.

1002
01:01:24,430 --> 01:01:26,630
It's kind of sweet, actually. He's shy,
Martin.

1003
01:01:30,170 --> 01:01:31,930
Scariest thing Martin ever told me.

1004
01:01:32,810 --> 01:01:37,450
I asked him why he used a knife when he
did a guy. Why not just shoot him?

1005
01:01:39,050 --> 01:01:41,430
He said he likes to touch them.

1006
01:01:42,280 --> 01:01:46,960
I think he goes so far, he fucks up so
totally just so somebody will finally

1007
01:01:46,960 --> 01:01:47,960
touch him.

1008
01:01:51,040 --> 01:01:52,860
He's a victim of bad therapy.

1009
01:01:56,700 --> 01:02:01,040
Charles doesn't need it to be dark. Who
the fuck is this guy, Charles? What does

1010
01:02:01,040 --> 01:02:02,040
he do?

1011
01:02:02,560 --> 01:02:03,760
He paints houses.

1012
01:02:04,900 --> 01:02:06,380
Oh, no, that's you, isn't it?

1013
01:02:07,540 --> 01:02:08,940
One second.

1014
01:02:14,250 --> 01:02:15,470
Okay, we can wait for Alex.

1015
01:02:16,930 --> 01:02:18,870
You can do it to me. Anything you want.

1016
01:02:19,490 --> 01:02:20,490
We'll be dreaming.

1017
01:02:21,470 --> 01:02:22,910
I'll just kind of drift away.

1018
01:02:24,130 --> 01:02:26,370
I'll wait until I fix before I put on
his necklace.

1019
01:02:39,290 --> 01:02:43,410
How do I look?

1020
01:02:44,360 --> 01:02:45,520
You did this shit on your date?

1021
01:02:45,800 --> 01:02:47,120
No, no, it's a different game.

1022
01:02:47,360 --> 01:02:49,160
Yeah, well, I like the one that we were
playing.

1023
01:02:49,720 --> 01:02:50,720
Remember?

1024
01:02:51,020 --> 01:02:53,520
What the fuck's going on? You said you
didn't want to wait until you fixed. Are

1025
01:02:53,520 --> 01:02:54,339
you chickening out?

1026
01:02:54,340 --> 01:02:55,340
Okay, sit down.

1027
01:02:57,160 --> 01:02:58,620
I wore a dress on the date.

1028
01:03:00,340 --> 01:03:01,880
Not this dress.

1029
01:03:05,160 --> 01:03:06,220
I lit candles.

1030
01:03:09,400 --> 01:03:10,660
And then I got on him.

1031
01:03:12,200 --> 01:03:13,200
Like this?

1032
01:03:17,420 --> 01:03:18,420
And we kissed.

1033
01:03:19,740 --> 01:03:20,740
Same as this.

1034
01:03:21,540 --> 01:03:22,780
And then I bit him.

1035
01:03:24,120 --> 01:03:25,120
Longer.

1036
01:03:25,340 --> 01:03:26,760
I made him bleed.

1037
01:03:27,260 --> 01:03:30,120
No, this guy used fucking needles.

1038
01:03:30,420 --> 01:03:32,480
I bit him and I made him bleed.

1039
01:03:34,440 --> 01:03:36,980
And then he put his face right up close
to me.

1040
01:03:38,140 --> 01:03:41,760
And he just licked my lips really
lightly, really gently.

1041
01:03:42,460 --> 01:03:43,620
He said, blood.

1042
01:03:48,270 --> 01:03:50,530
All right, don't do it, don't do it.
Just tell me.

1043
01:03:51,650 --> 01:03:53,390
He was holding him in my hand.

1044
01:03:53,590 --> 01:03:54,890
And I looked at him.

1045
01:03:55,390 --> 01:03:57,050
And then he put his hands on my hand.

1046
01:03:57,290 --> 01:04:00,990
And he lifted me up and he just sat me
down right on top of him.

1047
01:04:02,750 --> 01:04:08,090
And then he took his thumb and he hooked
it in my panties. And he just moved him

1048
01:04:08,090 --> 01:04:09,090
over.

1049
01:04:12,030 --> 01:04:13,930
I bet he sounded like a horse, right?

1050
01:04:14,210 --> 01:04:15,710
Might not sound like a horse.

1051
01:04:16,160 --> 01:04:17,400
Yeah, well, of course he is.

1052
01:04:18,900 --> 01:04:19,920
He'd have to the other way.

1053
01:04:20,520 --> 01:04:23,600
His wife would be pathetic. He'd be this
stupid guy running around doing all

1054
01:04:23,600 --> 01:04:28,080
that shit to make up for the fact that
he... Martin's insane.

1055
01:04:28,340 --> 01:04:29,340
That's stupid.

1056
01:04:29,940 --> 01:04:31,960
I know what you want, but you're not
going to admit it.

1057
01:04:33,360 --> 01:04:34,960
Oh, I think I know where this is going.

1058
01:04:35,220 --> 01:04:36,300
You don't want to be Charles.

1059
01:04:36,580 --> 01:04:39,160
Wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong. You
want to be me. I'm not gay, Noel.

1060
01:04:39,420 --> 01:04:42,060
Ask my shrink. You want to be taken by
me.

1061
01:04:42,360 --> 01:04:44,960
Lots of guys want that. I know how to do
it. I'm not gay.

1062
01:04:46,569 --> 01:04:49,330
Believe me, when this is over, my shrink
is going to have plenty to say.

1063
01:04:50,150 --> 01:04:52,990
And Denise LeBron never talked to me
again. If I tell her, well, I'm going to

1064
01:04:52,990 --> 01:04:53,749
have to tell her.

1065
01:04:53,750 --> 01:04:59,290
But, I mean, believe me, this thing, you
and me, this is not about me being gay.

1066
01:05:00,910 --> 01:05:01,910
I don't get it.

1067
01:05:03,350 --> 01:05:05,330
Well, if it was, I'd be here seeing
Dean.

1068
01:05:06,110 --> 01:05:08,950
No, what I mean, what are you talking
about?

1069
01:05:09,350 --> 01:05:11,670
You'll tell your shrink. You'll tell
Denise.

1070
01:05:12,870 --> 01:05:13,870
You're here.

1071
01:05:14,030 --> 01:05:15,030
That's over.

1072
01:05:16,720 --> 01:05:20,720
Oh, I don't mean tonight or tomorrow. I
mean, like, eventually.

1073
01:05:21,780 --> 01:05:25,420
My feet are back on the ground. Like,
what?

1074
01:05:31,680 --> 01:05:32,680
What?

1075
01:05:32,900 --> 01:05:34,380
What? What?

1076
01:05:35,620 --> 01:05:36,620
Wow.

1077
01:06:08,910 --> 01:06:09,910
What for?

1078
01:06:11,270 --> 01:06:14,850
I've got a surprise and I don't want you
looking. Roll over and put your face on

1079
01:06:14,850 --> 01:06:15,850
the pillow.

1080
01:06:21,870 --> 01:06:22,870
Hey, relax.

1081
01:06:22,970 --> 01:06:24,450
I just want your arms out of the way.

1082
01:06:35,650 --> 01:06:37,830
Okay, can we get the surprise over with?

1083
01:06:39,920 --> 01:06:44,560
How can you come from the same family as
me and be so stupid?

1084
01:06:53,800 --> 01:07:00,780
Well, you got me now.

1085
01:07:00,860 --> 01:07:01,960
I can't go anywhere.

1086
01:07:03,080 --> 01:07:04,900
You can do whatever you want with me.

1087
01:07:09,160 --> 01:07:10,560
You know what happens, Chris?

1088
01:07:10,900 --> 01:07:17,260
What always happens? You say things to
me, and I actually believe them. After

1089
01:07:17,260 --> 01:07:21,240
all this time, this is just another
little adventure for you. Just like

1090
01:07:21,240 --> 01:07:22,420
everything else.

1091
01:07:25,260 --> 01:07:28,340
I don't have a strap on. I always meant
to buy one.

1092
01:07:29,340 --> 01:07:30,340
Oh.

1093
01:07:30,580 --> 01:07:32,600
Oh, oh. I've got the candle.

1094
01:07:33,720 --> 01:07:34,800
Ow, ow, ow.

1095
01:07:35,420 --> 01:07:38,240
I don't know. Is it long enough? I don't
know what you're used to.

1096
01:07:45,830 --> 01:07:50,810
Charles, he liked it with the knife. He
didn't say it naturally, but I finally

1097
01:07:50,810 --> 01:07:51,810
figured it out.

1098
01:07:53,530 --> 01:07:59,130
I'd run it up between his legs like I
was going to cut his balls off.

1099
01:07:59,770 --> 01:08:05,390
He loved it. Then I'd slice him a
little, dab him a little.

1100
01:08:06,110 --> 01:08:08,310
Blood just kind of leaked out of him.

1101
01:08:09,290 --> 01:08:11,330
Not much. Nothing to write home about.

1102
01:08:12,090 --> 01:08:16,870
But then I took it right up against
Adam's apple.

1103
01:08:17,729 --> 01:08:21,010
And then I said, do it. Just like that,
I said, do it.

1104
01:08:21,649 --> 01:08:24,750
Ah, fuck. Noel, keep away from my
fucking eyes, please. I don't want to go

1105
01:08:24,750 --> 01:08:26,970
blind. No, what you don't want is over.

1106
01:08:29,170 --> 01:08:30,430
I could call Martin.

1107
01:08:32,649 --> 01:08:35,149
You know, Martin's done fine. He must
have had a boyfriend.

1108
01:08:36,380 --> 01:08:38,779
I know you think that if you're not on
the receiving end, you're not gay.

1109
01:08:45,439 --> 01:08:46,859
Did you call me and hang up?

1110
01:08:48,359 --> 01:08:49,920
No, I just thought it might have been
you.

1111
01:08:50,560 --> 01:08:55,000
Could you come here, like, right now?
There's a guy and he's in trouble.

1112
01:08:55,760 --> 01:08:59,740
I tell him there's trouble, he's here.

1113
01:09:00,220 --> 01:09:02,040
You guys haven't seen each other in a
long time.

1114
01:09:04,100 --> 01:09:05,100
It'll be interesting.

1115
01:09:12,040 --> 01:09:13,600
I'll paint the underwear for him.

1116
01:09:14,060 --> 01:09:16,580
You're wearing a little something. It
can actually be more tempting.

1117
01:09:18,020 --> 01:09:23,740
How do you like your date now?

1118
01:09:24,060 --> 01:09:27,960
Well, if it's going to happen, I mean,
it fucking has to happen, I guess it

1119
01:09:27,960 --> 01:09:28,960
might as well be Martin.

1120
01:09:29,060 --> 01:09:30,600
Don't try that bullshit on me.

1121
01:09:30,859 --> 01:09:33,960
Come on, you don't think it's just a
little bit funny, Noel? You came all

1122
01:09:33,960 --> 01:09:35,620
way so I could be Martin's girlfriend?

1123
01:09:37,350 --> 01:09:40,029
You better watch yourself, babe. He
might like me better.

1124
01:09:41,830 --> 01:09:45,290
You wish. I understand him. I like his
mind.

1125
01:09:46,330 --> 01:09:47,830
Get a big cock.

1126
01:09:52,149 --> 01:09:58,770
Oh, ow.

1127
01:09:59,250 --> 01:10:00,250
Oh, God.

1128
01:10:00,290 --> 01:10:01,890
Are you going to fucking kill me?

1129
01:10:03,730 --> 01:10:05,970
That's what happens when you don't get
away with it.

1130
01:10:09,340 --> 01:10:13,200
The fuck do you want from me, crazy
fucking bitch?

1131
01:10:14,960 --> 01:10:18,100
Everyone knows I'm bad. Nobody knows
about you.

1132
01:10:19,040 --> 01:10:20,220
Nobody but me.

1133
01:10:20,480 --> 01:10:21,480
How?

1134
01:10:21,700 --> 01:10:22,700
Why don't you pray?

1135
01:10:23,280 --> 01:10:24,460
There's a God. Pray.

1136
01:10:25,480 --> 01:10:27,540
You've got God. You don't need your
sister.

1137
01:10:28,500 --> 01:10:30,320
God's better than junk, right?

1138
01:10:30,720 --> 01:10:31,358
You know what?

1139
01:10:31,360 --> 01:10:34,080
Take the fucking money, all right? It's
my time. Take it all.

1140
01:10:34,400 --> 01:10:36,120
And then let me the fuck go.

1141
01:10:38,960 --> 01:10:40,060
Fucking let me go.

1142
01:10:40,980 --> 01:10:43,120
Come on. I don't want to play anymore.

1143
01:10:46,640 --> 01:10:47,640
Come on, Noel.

1144
01:10:48,140 --> 01:10:49,140
Let me go.

1145
01:10:55,540 --> 01:10:56,880
Let me the fuck go!

1146
01:11:01,300 --> 01:11:02,300
Fucking bitch.

1147
01:11:09,450 --> 01:11:11,070
My dad says very kinky.

1148
01:11:13,250 --> 01:11:14,690
Started running an ad.

1149
01:11:15,470 --> 01:11:16,630
I got a few guys.

1150
01:11:18,010 --> 01:11:19,930
I didn't know what to do with their
money.

1151
01:11:21,810 --> 01:11:23,010
I go shopping.

1152
01:11:26,290 --> 01:11:27,730
I don't even lift anything.

1153
01:11:27,970 --> 01:11:29,690
There's no point. Just shopping.

1154
01:11:33,710 --> 01:11:35,930
Then like today, I need money and it's
gone.

1155
01:11:37,730 --> 01:11:38,730
It's gone?

1156
01:11:39,020 --> 01:11:42,580
Hey, Noel, you got money now. I'm paying
for it.

1157
01:11:43,760 --> 01:11:44,760
Happy?

1158
01:11:47,000 --> 01:11:48,480
Do you go shopping, Chris?

1159
01:11:50,780 --> 01:11:52,120
Do you go to a movie?

1160
01:11:52,720 --> 01:11:54,000
Order a pizza?

1161
01:11:55,660 --> 01:11:56,840
Watch TV?

1162
01:11:59,660 --> 01:12:01,960
You wake up and that's that day and it's
okay.

1163
01:12:03,980 --> 01:12:06,520
How do you do that? Like, what is the
fucking point?

1164
01:12:06,880 --> 01:12:07,880
Your life.

1165
01:12:07,950 --> 01:12:09,010
Is it my fault, Noel?

1166
01:12:12,830 --> 01:12:19,210
Nothing is your fault. Come on. No, no,
no.

1167
01:12:39,370 --> 01:12:42,490
You still want to... I hate you.

1168
01:12:42,950 --> 01:12:47,070
I hate every fucking thing about you.
You still want to fuck me.

1169
01:12:47,930 --> 01:12:51,090
I can't... I can't die without doing it.

1170
01:12:51,410 --> 01:12:52,410
Come on.

1171
01:12:53,430 --> 01:12:56,550
I'll tell you what, Martin's going to
fuck you. That's what you really want.

1172
01:12:56,550 --> 01:12:57,188
it's not.

1173
01:12:57,190 --> 01:12:58,390
Yes. No!

1174
01:12:58,630 --> 01:13:04,550
Come on, be honest with me, little
bitch. You have always wanted Martin,

1175
01:13:04,550 --> 01:13:05,108
you? Oh, fuck.

1176
01:13:05,110 --> 01:13:06,390
That's why you're scared of him.

1177
01:13:06,970 --> 01:13:11,230
That's why you hate him so much. You
hate real men. You want to fuck them,

1178
01:13:11,230 --> 01:13:12,230
they scare you.

1179
01:13:12,690 --> 01:13:13,690
No.

1180
01:13:14,930 --> 01:13:15,930
Oh,

1181
01:13:16,690 --> 01:13:18,310
Noel, Noel, Noel.

1182
01:13:19,370 --> 01:13:22,810
I fucked Martin before you ever met him.

1183
01:13:23,150 --> 01:13:24,970
We were partners.

1184
01:13:25,230 --> 01:13:28,430
I fucked him in broad daylight.

1185
01:13:28,690 --> 01:13:29,970
He didn't need to be dark.

1186
01:13:31,690 --> 01:13:34,310
You don't want to die telling lies.
You'll never get to heaven.

1187
01:13:37,290 --> 01:13:40,970
He cries sometimes after he comes. He
whispers something.

1188
01:13:41,270 --> 01:13:42,790
I never quite make out what it is.

1189
01:13:43,210 --> 01:13:46,990
He whispers, and then he comes, and then
he cries.

1190
01:13:47,730 --> 01:13:48,730
Anyone?

1191
01:13:50,370 --> 01:13:54,690
I told you that. You heard that from me
whenever you don't. I think you know

1192
01:13:54,690 --> 01:13:56,730
that I didn't. Martin isn't gay.

1193
01:13:57,510 --> 01:13:58,510
Neither am I.

1194
01:14:03,210 --> 01:14:04,210
No, Mom!

1195
01:14:04,910 --> 01:14:05,950
You know what he looked for?

1196
01:14:06,670 --> 01:14:10,110
No. Mining, he whispers. Mining.

1197
01:14:50,510 --> 01:14:53,270
Got no idea where we are, but we're
making damn good time.

1198
01:15:24,390 --> 01:15:26,590
Now the question is, did I call Martin
or didn't I?

1199
01:15:27,130 --> 01:15:28,990
If I was you, I wouldn't take any
chances.

1200
01:15:30,530 --> 01:15:32,310
He'll kill you if I want him to.

1201
01:15:32,790 --> 01:15:36,730
Martin loves me more than he loves you,
so pack up and hit the road, brother.

1202
01:15:36,790 --> 01:15:37,790
We're even.

1203
01:15:38,150 --> 01:15:39,210
You know what you are, Paul?

1204
01:15:40,270 --> 01:15:41,590
You know what you fucking are?

1205
01:15:42,730 --> 01:15:44,230
Yeah, I'm tough.

1206
01:15:59,280 --> 01:16:00,460
Stupid fucking brat.

1207
01:16:01,000 --> 01:16:02,640
You scared?

1208
01:16:03,440 --> 01:16:07,220
How does that feel, Noel? Is that a
little scary?

1209
01:16:12,660 --> 01:16:13,659
Sorry, brother.

1210
01:16:13,660 --> 01:16:17,300
They say put a paper bag over his head
and fuck him with paper bags. I'm not

1211
01:16:17,300 --> 01:16:24,120
leaving here without my fucking

1212
01:16:24,120 --> 01:16:25,120
money.

1213
01:16:25,540 --> 01:16:28,360
Well, there's nothing you can do. It's
going to make me tell you where it is.

1214
01:16:29,020 --> 01:16:30,500
You won't find anything bad in here.

1215
01:16:31,760 --> 01:16:32,760
Ow, fuck.

1216
01:16:35,360 --> 01:16:38,080
You can be a stupid, you look.

1217
01:16:38,660 --> 01:16:40,820
You had it coming. You know you did.

1218
01:16:41,780 --> 01:16:43,920
You don't want to be bad. You want to be
nothing.

1219
01:16:48,240 --> 01:16:50,240
You'll never make me talk. You know it.

1220
01:16:51,680 --> 01:16:53,720
Martin could make me, but you can't.

1221
01:16:58,000 --> 01:17:00,340
Martin could make me do a lot of things,
too.

1222
01:17:01,000 --> 01:17:06,040
You have to ruin everything I've ever
had. You have always done it. My whole

1223
01:17:06,040 --> 01:17:07,740
fucking life. You're so jealous.

1224
01:17:09,180 --> 01:17:10,180
Maybe.

1225
01:17:13,980 --> 01:17:14,980
Hey, Martin.

1226
01:17:16,940 --> 01:17:17,940
Hey, Martin.

1227
01:17:18,840 --> 01:17:19,840
Martin, Martin, Martin.

1228
01:17:23,800 --> 01:17:24,800
Martin!

1229
01:17:28,180 --> 01:17:31,600
Noel has eaten all of my money. She
won't tell me where it is.

1230
01:17:33,660 --> 01:17:34,660
What's that?

1231
01:17:35,500 --> 01:17:36,500
What's that?

1232
01:17:36,920 --> 01:17:41,020
Martin says you're a bad little fucking
whore.

1233
01:17:43,260 --> 01:17:46,580
You came out here just to tell me about
you and him, didn't you?

1234
01:17:46,880 --> 01:17:49,540
Just so you could fucking wipe out what
we have.

1235
01:17:49,980 --> 01:17:55,540
Hey, you wiped out what I had with him.
Why don't you fucking think about that?

1236
01:18:04,010 --> 01:18:07,990
Most awful fucking thing in the world to
you.

1237
01:18:14,970 --> 01:18:16,950
I'll die before I show you what money
is.

1238
01:18:17,250 --> 01:18:18,250
Okay.

1239
01:18:19,690 --> 01:18:20,690
Go.

1240
01:18:21,510 --> 01:18:23,950
Keep your eye on it. Keep your eye on
it.

1241
01:18:37,930 --> 01:18:38,930
Ready?

1242
01:20:34,800 --> 01:20:36,240
And I've always been in love with you.

1243
01:20:37,040 --> 01:20:38,180
Right from forever.

1244
01:21:11,980 --> 01:21:12,980
You passed, Freddie.

1245
01:21:13,740 --> 01:21:14,740
I'm mad.

1246
01:21:16,260 --> 01:21:17,260
Stupid!

1247
01:21:18,840 --> 01:21:22,580
That was fucking crazy! We can't even
fix it!

1248
01:21:24,160 --> 01:21:27,740
That was the craziest fucking thing I
ever saw in my life!

1249
01:21:29,000 --> 01:21:30,000
I'm flattered.

1250
01:21:54,000 --> 01:21:55,520
You never gave me anything this nice.

1251
01:21:58,000 --> 01:21:59,420
He must really like you.

1252
01:22:04,640 --> 01:22:05,640
Mark.

1253
01:22:07,980 --> 01:22:11,380
Mark, it isn't fair. I don't have
anything.

1254
01:22:25,260 --> 01:22:28,360
It takes more guts to kill yourself than
it does to keep on living.

1255
01:22:29,820 --> 01:22:33,200
We're not going to kill ourselves with
dope, that's for sure.

1256
01:22:35,900 --> 01:22:36,360
Tomorrow,

1257
01:22:36,360 --> 01:22:44,620
if

1258
01:22:44,620 --> 01:22:46,740
you still feel this way, I'll call Dad.
I promise.

1259
01:22:46,980 --> 01:22:47,980
Okay?

1260
01:22:50,620 --> 01:22:52,460
If I still feel like what?

1261
01:22:55,340 --> 01:22:58,020
You still feel like however you did when
you woke up this morning.

1262
01:23:01,960 --> 01:23:04,380
You're not as stupid as you look, Chris.

1263
01:23:06,860 --> 01:23:10,060
All right, what are we going to do?

1264
01:23:12,600 --> 01:23:14,040
We're going to take a bath.

1265
01:23:16,840 --> 01:23:18,980
We have to do something.

1266
01:23:27,880 --> 01:23:28,880
I regret.

1267
01:23:30,020 --> 01:23:34,640
I feel bad about the bad things I didn't
do.

1268
01:23:38,060 --> 01:23:38,580
You

1269
01:23:38,580 --> 01:23:52,540
said

1270
01:23:52,540 --> 01:23:53,540
it, babe.

1271
01:23:55,860 --> 01:23:57,020
You said it all.

1272
01:24:00,170 --> 01:24:01,170
I hate you more.

1273
01:24:01,550 --> 01:24:02,550
I hate you.

1274
01:24:02,870 --> 01:24:04,250
I hate you.

1275
01:24:06,470 --> 01:24:07,470
You're ugly.

1276
01:24:10,710 --> 01:24:16,650
When I was in grade five or six, I used
to lie down in this field behind my

1277
01:24:16,650 --> 01:24:17,650
school.

1278
01:24:18,870 --> 01:24:20,470
I had a friend, Linda.

1279
01:24:21,530 --> 01:24:23,770
We used to go there, lie down, and wait
for boys.

1280
01:24:25,330 --> 01:24:27,230
Linda used to do this. They knew we were
there.

1281
01:24:28,650 --> 01:24:32,090
It was mainly necking kid stuff. They
put their hands under our clothes.

1282
01:24:35,310 --> 01:24:37,010
There was this guy my brother knew.

1283
01:24:37,870 --> 01:24:41,570
He liked me. Sometimes he'd pull other
guys off me and have me all alone.

1284
01:24:43,010 --> 01:24:44,830
I didn't like him. I liked what he did.

1285
01:24:45,330 --> 01:24:47,670
You lie down in a field, you're not
being choosy.

1286
01:24:50,650 --> 01:24:52,990
Sometimes it was just me, him, my
brother, and Linda.

1287
01:24:55,390 --> 01:24:58,310
The guys, they were lying so close,
their shoulders would...

1288
01:24:58,600 --> 01:24:59,600
Touch.

1289
01:25:00,800 --> 01:25:03,820
I don't think about when I was a kid,
but I remember that.

1290
01:25:04,880 --> 01:25:05,880
I remember that.

1291
01:25:09,800 --> 01:25:12,800
I haven't been here lately.

1292
01:25:13,780 --> 01:25:16,200
Yesterday it was... It's been three
months.

1293
01:25:17,320 --> 01:25:19,040
Three months since I fixed yesterday.

1294
01:25:19,960 --> 01:25:23,800
I never had a thing for booze. It's
sloppy and there's no class to it.

1295
01:25:24,460 --> 01:25:29,080
You don't have to rob a bank to get a
drink. You don't shoot anyone, dab

1296
01:25:29,260 --> 01:25:35,340
You don't fucking go back to the liquor
store, break the guy's knees because he

1297
01:25:35,340 --> 01:25:36,340
ripped you off.

1298
01:25:37,420 --> 01:25:39,840
You don't get to live like that
drinking.

1299
01:25:42,440 --> 01:25:46,480
Junk gives you a life. It isn't perfect,
maybe, but, you know, gets you out of

1300
01:25:46,480 --> 01:25:47,480
bed in the morning.

1301
01:25:48,420 --> 01:25:49,900
Gets me out of bed anyways.

1302
01:25:53,740 --> 01:25:54,740
It's funny.

1303
01:25:55,420 --> 01:25:59,060
I was thinking about my brother, about
when we were kids.

1304
01:26:00,320 --> 01:26:03,780
I remember when he first started
drinking, not when he was a kid.

1305
01:26:04,640 --> 01:26:09,920
He was drunk every night once he
started, and I said to him, I said, is

1306
01:26:09,920 --> 01:26:12,660
what you want? Is it good? As good as
the real thing?

1307
01:26:13,180 --> 01:26:19,760
My brother says he said, he said, after
junk, tricking,

1308
01:26:19,780 --> 01:26:22,540
he said, after junk.

1309
01:26:23,300 --> 01:26:25,220
Drinking was like kissing your sister.

1310
01:26:28,420 --> 01:26:31,060
He told me, and he drank, he drank a
lot.

1311
01:26:31,460 --> 01:26:34,540
He said it never really got him there.
He drank and drank. I mean, he's an

1312
01:26:34,540 --> 01:26:38,080
alcoholic, but it wasn't the same.

1313
01:26:39,000 --> 01:26:42,940
It was like, well, it was like what he
said.

1314
01:26:43,160 --> 01:26:47,800
It was, well, I guess you know what he's
trying to say. If it's not what you

1315
01:26:47,800 --> 01:26:50,660
want, if it isn't the real thing, then
it's just like kissing your sister.

1316
01:26:56,780 --> 01:26:58,300
I guess that pretty much says it.